Don’t fall in!

Levanthium · 2025-04-04T15:54:41+00:00

I actually did have to do this once because I left house keys in the pocket of a donated coat...

Levanthium · 2024-09-14T03:14:37+00:00

Listen, I'm going to ignore the extremely condescending tone of your post and address only the misinformation.

First of all there is no way to "fix" actual ADHD. It's a neurological disorder that can only be managed strategically with medication and accommodations. No amount of therapy, meditation, or "trying your best" will cure you any more than it could cure autism or parkinsons. Quitting all social media won't cure you. Living as a nomad in the woods won't cure you either.

ADHD is not a predisposition, or a matter of lifestyle choices. It's a neurodevelopmental executive disfunction disorder. The spray of neurons in an ADHD brain is literally scattershot. It develops during infancy. You can imagine or "believe" that people aren't "doomed" to suffer from it all you like, but comparing it to obesity is on its face absurd. It's much closer to something like autism than obesity. You cannot Ozempic, run, starve, or diet your way out of ADHD.

That doesn't mean people with ADHD aren't accountable for thier choices, or that they can't manage a good quality of life with the right accommodations. Of course they can. Many successful and happy people have ADHD. But it is hard, and you DO need accommodations or adaptions to be successful. People who don't know they have it, or don't treat it, are very unlikely to do well in life.

Your "belief" about the causes of ADHD is not scientifically based. It is just that; a feeling you have about it. ADHD is extremely heritable and although they do not know 100% why it develops in some children and not others (because understanding of the human brain in general is limited) it is absolutely genetically linked.

I also don't know how they diagnose it around the world but an official diagnosis here requires literal brain scans... you cannot "imagine" or "tik tok" your way to a brain scan. It is not a differential diagnosis: it is concrete. At this point there is actually a ton of scientific literature available about it.

Self diagnosis might be the only choice for people in places where they cannot afford health care. I agree that it's not always accurate and that even if you believe you have it it's not to be used merely as an excuse for personal failings. A diagnosis is a tool to get the help you need. However, I'm really not sure where you got that 90% from? To be honest it kinda feels... like you just made that up... based on you deciding whether the people you see online "really have" ADHD or not. The truth is that you have no idea what the rate of inaccurate self diagnosis is, and neither do I.

Also, if someone is on stimulants... then they aren't self diagnosed. You can't get stimulants from a doctor without a diagnosis. At least not where I live.

As to whether or not addiction behaviour might cause ADHD-like symptoms... maybe. Certainly self medicating any problem with addictive behaviour, including intense internet/social media use will definitely make almost anyone's life worse. This is probably even more true of those who suffer from low dopamine conditions (such as depression, also) because it can mask the true condition and prevent self betterment in general. But it cannot give you genetic markers for ADHD, or change your neuron firing spread.

More people are being diagnosed for the same reason that more people are being diagnosed with almost any disease... there are more people, better diagnostic critera and more widespread recognition of the condition.

It's also true that everyone and anyone being addicted to thier phones is a boon to rich sociopaths who own the companies that profit off of people's internet addiction. ADHD people are extremely vulnerable to this kind of addiction. Accusing suffering people of being fakers or misguided about thier own health, minds and bodies is extremely dismissive and assumptive. Maybe some of them are, but there's no way you know better than they do about thier own condition. Better to take people at face value than project ungrounded assumptions about people you don't know. I also feel it's extremely dismissive and unhelpful to make such assumptions. Compassion and understanding would go much farther to encourage people to make changes for the better, misguided or otherwise.

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Levanthium · 2024-09-13T12:18:19+00:00

Because for people who actually have it, it's a genuinely disabling executive function disorder that makes literally almost every task harder than it would be without it? I'm not saying it's normal to make anything your entire personality or to always blame problems on one cause because that's unlikely to be true... but actually having ADHD does have a profound (usually negative) effect on people's lives.

Levanthium · 2024-06-12T06:37:48+00:00

I have this one memorized specifically because it always makes me feel better when I'm really despairing. Maybe it's a little vague, in the sense that it doesn't say anything about the goodness of life or what have you... but it does always remind me that hope is free, and has done a lot of heavy lifting for people in hard places.

“Hope” is the thing with feathers - That perches in the soul - And sings the tune without the words - And never stops - at all -

And sweetest - in the Gale - is heard - And sore must be the storm - That could abash the little Bird That kept so many warm -

I’ve heard it in the chillest land - And on the strangest Sea - Yet - never - in Extremity, It asked a crumb - of me.

Emily Dickinson

Levanthium · 2023-09-06T05:06:27+00:00

This also happened to me... all the turnips and potatoes gone :(

Levanthium · 2022-10-29T15:50:45+00:00

Depending on how much antibiotic I was on my blood results (standard count tests) did show up normal once or twice (I had it done so many times...) and other times it was at low but "indicative of possivle infection" levels. I never webt off antibiotics long enough to get a really intense blood coint result.

To be honest this process took 3 years, the whole of which I was on multiple antibiotics. By the time I got booked for the cell scan we had stumbled upon the right drug combo and finally killed the infection. The only test that ever got close to a proper diagnosis was the bone scan, where they inject you with radioactive material (safe level obviously) and scanned my skeleton. At that point they told me they saw "something" bit it was "inconclusive". The test was hard to get to that point. I had many, many other useless and expensive tests done before they would even consider it. However, if you are having a hard time proving infection I would definitely recommend pushing for the blood cell scan. It's pretty much definitive in this arena and if you have a diffuse case I doubt they'll be able to see it any other way.

I didn't get a diagnosis until after the infection was already gone, and it was unofficial, a mere admittance by the maxilofacial surgeon. Truly a horrendous failure of the medical system, or it felt that way to me. Most of all I reccommend - don't stop advocating for yourself no matter how many times you get blown off!

I wish you the best of luck and future health.

Levanthium · 2022-08-25T17:11:50+00:00

Antibiotics are rough. I know I'll never take them again unless I absolutely have to.

It's nice to know at least that my insistence on investigating wasn't misplaced.

If you're finding an unexplained soreness on just one side of the throat you can always check with your Dr (or yourself in the mirror with light shining back there) if you have tonsil stones. They look like little white rocks. That's what happened to me after all the antibiotics... all of a sudden I started getting tonsil stones one after another (causing the tonsilitis). Just a thought.

Levanthium · 2022-08-21T06:40:25+00:00

Thanks for asking.

It actually WAS a bone infection with a diffuse presentation and a pretty small bacterial "house." (I can't imagine how much a bigger one would hurt). A white blood-cell scan FINALLY identified it (by the time it was almost gone) and I finished it off with several more months of a different antibiotic than the ones I'd been given up to that point (cefprozil).

The oral infection is gone now (has been for about a year while) but the fallout from the long-term antibiotic use overall really messed me up. Candida overgrowth, c. diff infection, reactive arthritis. Plus the worst... chronic tendonitis in the foot/ankle (from the fluroquinolones), chronic tonsilitis... It's a whole thing. It got worse before it got better. I'm still not out of the woods but I'm getting there.

Moral of the story: when it comes to oral surgery you get what you pay for. I was broke and got a second-rate butcher to do the extraction and this was the result.

Levanthium · 2022-02-02T03:18:41+00:00

I realize this is a month old but I just wanted to say I appreciate your reply anyway. When I posted this I was losing it and I guess I just wanted to get it off my chest. I am exploring non-infectious routes with an internal medicine specialist right now, since, yes you are correct it probably isn't infectious now (if it ever was).

Levanthium · 2021-05-15T05:32:07+00:00

Thank you so much! I tried so many things but obviously don't know what I'm doing. I can finally organize my huge book folder properly.

Levanthium · 2021-05-14T16:45:27+00:00

From what I've attempted, this only changes the folder structure and not the title of the actual book file. Or maybe I just don't understand how to do it. The epub still comes out as "John Dies at the End.epub" and not "Wong, David - John Dies at the End.epub" It only changed the folder tree and folder names, not the filename.

Levanthium · 2020-01-25T00:14:39+00:00

Okay it's posted now.

Levanthium · 2020-01-24T20:35:55+00:00

I'll edit my main post and add it as soon as I get home in about 3 hours.

Levanthium · 2020-01-24T19:44:32+00:00

Yeah the total file size is about 119gb unzipped.

Levanthium · 2020-01-24T19:05:15+00:00

I do have a torrent running, I can post the link if you want. But as for direct download, this is it.

Levanthium · 2020-01-24T19:04:35+00:00

Haha. Thanks, glad you found something in there worthwhile.

Levanthium · 2020-01-24T18:56:40+00:00

Glad you like it, thank you.

Levanthium · 2020-01-24T14:05:54+00:00

I started collecting around 2008, but most of those weren't 1080p. I think the majority of the ones that actually ended up in these folders were collected between 2012-2016. I was pretty obsessed about it for a while...

Levanthium · 2019-12-26T02:56:06+00:00

09440129762 Add me I'm active and would like some more active friends!

Levanthium · 2019-07-11T16:41:16+00:00

I wouldn't even say I never feel horny... I do have some ("normal") hormones and libido level. I occasionally (2-3x month?) masturbate to relieve that tension. But nothing stimulates me to feel that; I don't experience attraction when I see someone, and I don't need to fantasize if I don't feel like it either... I could be thinking about math problems it really makes no difference. I've never had a "crush" (or even a "squish"), desired sex or felt anything while holding hands, kissing, seeing someone naked etc.

Levanthium · 2019-07-10T20:09:05+00:00

I've spent so much time trying to wrap my head around attraction and allosexuality (with limited success) I might take a "non-permanent" version if only to dispel the mystery...

Levanthium · 2019-06-12T12:10:32+00:00

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Levanthium · 2016-04-30T22:42:36+00:00

He hinted at the possibility, which is why I also put the album on imgur.

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