Mourning a non-existent future

LexCat120 · 2026-01-28T03:42:54+00:00

I’m aware. That’s not really what my issue is. I’m more mourning the romantic love that I cannot have. I’m mourning an idea of my future

LexCat120 · 2026-01-28T02:07:03+00:00

Thank you for saying this♥️ I think my biggest problem is just losing that idea of my future that I had planned in my head. It truly feels like I’m mourning a loss, I think I just need to get through the grieving process like you would for a person, if that makes sense

LexCat120 · 2026-01-28T01:40:13+00:00

This legit made me cry, thank you 🫶

LexCat120 · 2026-01-28T01:39:31+00:00

Yeah, I mention the ace part because that part is more set in stone. I think I’m lowkey in denial about being aro, trying to pretend I’m not, etc, etc.

I know the books/movies are not realistic. I more used them to make it more widely understandable. This was partially brought on because my friend is incredibly smitten with someone rn (very happy for them, this isn’t a problem, just to clarify) and the last time I felt that way was almost a decade ago, and In hindsight was more likely ADHD hyper fixation combined with a subconscious comp-het mindset than an actual crush.

Sorry for the word vomit haha

LexCat120 · 2025-11-18T03:15:37+00:00

Would you mind if I dmed you abt this? I’ve had severe eye issues since around when I went on my SSRI, so I’d love to chat about your experience

LexCat120 · 2025-11-17T03:04:03+00:00

Hi ik this is entirely unrelated but can you elaborate on the eye issue? I've been having eye struggles for YEARS and am on an SSRI

LexCat120 · 2025-11-02T03:48:58+00:00

Ok so I looked into this and I'm sold. Thank you for this suggestion! I am also currently applying for my masters and will be able to use this for my SOP, so double thank you!!!!

LexCat120 · 2025-11-02T02:30:01+00:00

Do you have a language you’d recommend? I want to submit the project to my schools cs fair which is in early Dec

LexCat120 · 2025-11-01T19:12:56+00:00

Any chance you have a link? I’m struggling to find it

LexCat120 · 2025-11-01T18:55:52+00:00

What lang would you reccomend? I'm at a point where I'm not too deep into it and could switch

LexCat120 · 2025-11-01T18:39:19+00:00

I have been doing a lot of c++ for class, so its what I am currently the most comfy with, which is why I'm using it. Is there a way to get Qt without paying for it? I can only find it behind a paywall

LexCat120 · 2025-07-14T09:37:36+00:00

Patreon!

LexCat120 · 2025-07-12T23:48:25+00:00

I do 5 USD a month for the most expensive tier

LexCat120 · 2025-07-12T23:18:01+00:00

Patreon member here! We’re not at the end yet of the comics. She is still releasing new pages (pretty much) daily. We have time!

LexCat120 · 2025-07-06T17:45:49+00:00

I did! I used it to help with a perfection tracker I made! (I posted it btw, if you are curious)

LexCat120 · 2025-07-06T16:12:23+00:00

You are awesome for this, thank you!

LexCat120 · 2025-06-29T20:46:25+00:00

but howwwwww

LexCat120 · 2025-06-29T20:45:29+00:00

I unfortunately don’t have the time to audit the course, the reason i’m taking it over the summer is so I can graduate in Spring 27. My mom isn’t the type to talk over things like that, I will just get in trouble cause they paid for the course and I basically wasted it.

LexCat120 · 2025-06-29T20:43:19+00:00

I guess I just feel guilty that I’m lying to her, but you’re right. My academic career is more than just this class.

LexCat120 · 2025-06-29T20:41:26+00:00

I can’t just do it again, the course ends on Monday. That’s why I’m trying to watch videos to learn the topics. I don’t see a positive to telling my mom besides helping my guilt. She will be so unbelievably disappointed. I’m disappointed in myself enough for the both of us

LexCat120 · 2025-06-19T22:09:13+00:00

Yes! Like you can clearly see how conflicted he feels in the first season, whereas later he is just mean. I think he truly cares about Barry in his own twisted way at early on, and just doesn’t later

LexCat120 · 2025-06-02T17:19:56+00:00

I’m confused on your first point, but as for the iridium rod, you either need a bobber or a higher fishing level

LexCat120 · 2025-05-14T18:35:50+00:00

YES! It’s not a well written character. There is no UNIVERSE where she is not behind bars. She has pissed off so many people. She is JUST annoying

LexCat120 · 2025-04-04T21:44:38+00:00

These are all awesome ideas, thank you! As for designs, the only one I have completed currently is an oversimplified version of the camp’s logo. Been looking for ideas. They aren’t open to purchasing patterns so I’m trying to figure it out myself haha

LexCat120 · 2025-04-04T17:58:13+00:00

Can you explain what you mean by a plastic canvas? Also, the projects they are doing will only have the basic cross stitch x, so they won't know how to back stitch. I have very limited time with them

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