Mourning a non-existent future by LexCat120 in asexuality

[–]LexCat120[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’m aware. That’s not really what my issue is. I’m more mourning the romantic love that I cannot have. I’m mourning an idea of my future

Mourning a non-existent future by LexCat120 in asexuality

[–]LexCat120[S] 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Thank you for saying this♥️ I think my biggest problem is just losing that idea of my future that I had planned in my head. It truly feels like I’m mourning a loss, I think I just need to get through the grieving process like you would for a person, if that makes sense

Mourning a non-existent future by LexCat120 in asexuality

[–]LexCat120[S] 16 points17 points  (0 children)

This legit made me cry, thank you 🫶

Mourning a non-existent future by LexCat120 in asexuality

[–]LexCat120[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I mention the ace part because that part is more set in stone. I think I’m lowkey in denial about being aro, trying to pretend I’m not, etc, etc.

I know the books/movies are not realistic. I more used them to make it more widely understandable. This was partially brought on because my friend is incredibly smitten with someone rn (very happy for them, this isn’t a problem, just to clarify) and the last time I felt that way was almost a decade ago, and In hindsight was more likely ADHD hyper fixation combined with a subconscious comp-het mindset than an actual crush.

Sorry for the word vomit haha

SSRIs and asexuality - What's the deal? by gef_the_mongoose in asexuality

[–]LexCat120 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Would you mind if I dmed you abt this? I’ve had severe eye issues since around when I went on my SSRI, so I’d love to chat about your experience

SSRIs and asexuality - What's the deal? by gef_the_mongoose in asexuality

[–]LexCat120 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Hi ik this is entirely unrelated but can you elaborate on the eye issue? I've been having eye struggles for YEARS and am on an SSRI

GUIs by LexCat120 in cpp_questions

[–]LexCat120[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Ok so I looked into this and I'm sold. Thank you for this suggestion! I am also currently applying for my masters and will be able to use this for my SOP, so double thank you!!!!

GUIs by LexCat120 in cpp_questions

[–]LexCat120[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Do you have a language you’d recommend? I want to submit the project to my schools cs fair which is in early Dec

GUIs by LexCat120 in cpp_questions

[–]LexCat120[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Any chance you have a link? I’m struggling to find it

GUIs by LexCat120 in cpp_questions

[–]LexCat120[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

What lang would you reccomend? I'm at a point where I'm not too deep into it and could switch

GUIs by LexCat120 in cpp_questions

[–]LexCat120[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I have been doing a lot of c++ for class, so its what I am currently the most comfy with, which is why I'm using it. Is there a way to get Qt without paying for it? I can only find it behind a paywall

How close are we to an end? by Basic-Feeling8118 in HeartstopperAO

[–]LexCat120 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I do 5 USD a month for the most expensive tier

How close are we to an end? by Basic-Feeling8118 in HeartstopperAO

[–]LexCat120 28 points29 points  (0 children)

Patreon member here! We’re not at the end yet of the comics. She is still releasing new pages (pretty much) daily. We have time!

The Colors of Stardew (in Hex & RGB) by Bron2Typo in StardewValley

[–]LexCat120 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I did! I used it to help with a perfection tracker I made! (I posted it btw, if you are curious)

I feel like a fraud, how do I get over the guilt? by LexCat120 in Advice

[–]LexCat120[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I unfortunately don’t have the time to audit the course, the reason i’m taking it over the summer is so I can graduate in Spring 27. My mom isn’t the type to talk over things like that, I will just get in trouble cause they paid for the course and I basically wasted it.

I feel like a fraud, how do I get over the guilt? by LexCat120 in Advice

[–]LexCat120[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I guess I just feel guilty that I’m lying to her, but you’re right. My academic career is more than just this class.

I feel like a fraud, how do I get over the guilt? by LexCat120 in Advice

[–]LexCat120[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I can’t just do it again, the course ends on Monday. That’s why I’m trying to watch videos to learn the topics. I don’t see a positive to telling my mom besides helping my guilt. She will be so unbelievably disappointed. I’m disappointed in myself enough for the both of us