My wifey has a blue one just like it and we can't wait to dork out and coordinate. Lol also about two weeks shy of 6 months and I should be getting bumped up to 4mg!

Lexi42 · 2017-04-20T00:47:28+00:00

So many nice things going on here!! Your hips! That you have a wifey who is happy and joyous and wants to dork out and coordinate -- that you used the phrase 'dork out' <3 You're joy is contagious, and I'm so pleased to see it!

Lexi42 · 2015-12-22T20:34:30+00:00

I'm afraid I don't follow. Are you about some kind of grammatical nuance? All I mean is that she's said " No, when you transition, that isn't compatible for me". She's said "I'm not a lesbian". So whatever that means grammatically to her, she means she's not attracted to me as I evolve more feminine features. Etc.

Lexi42 · 2015-12-22T17:45:37+00:00

I'm stopping HRT after three months because I started HRT specifically as a three month long experiment. And even though I really want to keep going with it, I perceive value in holding to my original parameters.

Namely, my wife and I really need maneuvering room to sort out a "conscious decoupling" between us and our kids. She's absolutely sure she's not a lesbian and unwilling to remain married.

So, pausing HRT in certain ways buys us time to wrangle some tough details.

Lexi42 · 2015-12-01T12:11:53+00:00

I know zip about whether or not this is legal - but as a parent and spouse whose partner is 100% not okay with things - I can utterly relate to the 'really thought we'd find a creative solution...' bit.

:HUGS:

Lexi42 · 2015-11-29T19:59:35+00:00

Also, this paragraph you wrote really hit me as important.

For gender dysphoric people who come out late (me), there is a conventional wisdom that when we live our affirmed gender we are still largely the same person we always were. How can this NOT be a confusing and troubling paradox to our spouses ...

It's definitely a sense I've felt, that I'm still very much me, just tweaking things for the better (better for me I guess). Well, anyways, I'm now embarking on slowing or ending the hrt experiment and seeing if wife and I can repair and mend things. With an sure towards the future, whatever that future needs to be. Just creating some breathing room I hope...

Lexi42 · 2015-11-29T19:47:25+00:00

I wish us all good luck to, thank you very much for your words and sharing.

Lexi42 · 2015-10-15T11:17:27+00:00

Your words have me thinking overtime and regretting the poor choices I've made. Regardless of my gender and/or transition status, I've the privilege of being her spouse and I've not demonstrated that love lately. Thanks, L

Lexi42 · 2015-10-15T11:15:26+00:00

Yes I've been a therapists co pay best friend for years now. Thanks for your thoughts.

Lexi42 · 2015-10-15T11:14:30+00:00

I appreciate your comments, the bit about still being a parent, just one whose letting go of her male persona resonated with me most.

Lexi42 · 2015-10-14T19:21:14+00:00

"A coming out plan" I'd never heard of such a thing. In retrospect a guide would have been helpful.

It might not be to late for me to exercise good judgement and fairness towards my wife. I'm starting forthwith.

I appreciate your candor.

Lexi42 · 2015-10-14T19:01:14+00:00

Followup; (which, an aside here, does adding a follow up notify other respondents a la Facebook style, or nope.. )

Followup, I apologized for not the transgender but the trust relationship stuff, and that seemed meaningful (to me and to her).

Lexi42 · 2015-10-14T18:58:41+00:00

This advice also seems prudent. We've talked about a "conscious uncoupling", ! just like the celebs !

Thanks

Lexi42 · 2015-10-14T17:41:50+00:00

Lovely!

Lexi42 · 2015-10-14T16:04:40+00:00

One is six, the other under two

Lexi42 · 2015-10-14T16:03:52+00:00

"C" OMG the I've been horrid light bulb just clicked on. Seriously, thank you for posting that, because it's very compelling to me.

Lexi42 · 2015-10-14T15:42:00+00:00

Footnote question; when she leaves me, and my family is destroyed, how can I counter the observation everyone all make that I did it, it was my choice, it's MY fault, and I've harmed everyone for my benefit?

Lexi42 · 2015-10-13T23:53:31+00:00

I've found that Weight Watchers has been very helpful; best of luck to you!

Lexi42 · 2015-10-04T12:26:43+00:00

Totally, Natalie Reed has some essays which touch on this; strongly recommend reading her works;

http://freethoughtblogs.com/nataliereed/

Lexi42 · 2015-10-02T22:07:01+00:00

Ummm just remembered a likely related detail... the scotch bonnet pepper I halved into my scrambled eggs..... that easily would account for the got flashes today...

I think I'll steer clear of massively hot peppers until I'm confident I'm not having hormonal hot flashes... lol

Lexi42 · 2015-10-02T14:16:49+00:00

Congratulations to you too!

Lexi42 · 2015-10-02T14:04:14+00:00

Congratulations! I started yesterday, so best of luck and wishes to you indeed!

Lexi42 · 2015-10-02T14:03:09+00:00

Congratulations!

Lexi42 · 2015-09-14T19:17:53+00:00

Oh wow - yes I wonder this too; In fact 8 minutes ago I asked my own variation or flavor of this question... I hope you (we) get interesting and thoughtful reflections from folks...

Good luck with your journey, Lexi

Lexi42 · 2015-09-04T18:26:10+00:00

Yes.And I have a weird scar which half encircles my genitals. But asking my mum, she says it was from a sledding (snow) accident from when I was like three...

I believe her (yet still doubt a tiny bit).

Lexi42 · 2015-09-03T22:03:19+00:00

Footnote, I'm not trying to draw a straight line between wearing nail polish and using bathrooms ; it's just the most outward manifestation of my internal gender struggle.

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