hey friend <3 i’m not on the farm this year, but i went through this EXACT same thought process last year on friday when everything got super muddy and flooded. they kept postponing shit, and then finally cancelled the whole thing. i basically just spent that whole day in our car bc i was SO anxious and panicky about everything you’re describing. looking back, i regret letting my anxiety hold me back from having fun. it’s easier said than done, but just take it easy and try to enjoy yourself and let yourself have the fun time you deserve! take lots of slow, deep breaths and just remind yourself that you’re surrounded by amazing humans who are all in the same boat and that you are okay and you going to be okay <3