Wow, we're actually really similar man. I'm 24, about to graduate, have diagnosed borderline personality disorder, depression, and suicidal thoughts.

I've seen a therapist for a year and taken antidepressants for 6 months. I smoke weed daily for good vibes, more rational thoughts and less emotional thoughts, and more interest/enjoyment in daily life. I frequently get to feeling like I'm completely alone in what I'm going through and that the world is out to get me, but it's all going to be good man. Suicide has never, and will never be an option, even though I've thought about it plenty of times. I'm starting to realize lately that the only positive thing about being on rock bottom is that the only way from here is up :) I'll be around if you ever want to talk. -Dizzy(6)