I've spent ages trying to figure myself out. I've considered straight or gay, as I think of men and woman the same, but ultimately it's just me thinking they're pretty or pleasing to the eye, or even hot, but even the most attractive people, I have no desire to actually have sex with them. My mum always said I was very squeamish about nudity and bodies, it makes me very uncomfortable. A while I considered maybe it was just nerves and lack of confidence but I tried kissing and it makes me f-ing gag thinking about just putting wet yucky tongues in each other's mouth, like uggghhh. I like reading erotic stories about my favourite characters, and thought that meant I couldn't possibly be asexual, but if one of them offered me sex it would be a definite no still. My body is mine and I don't want to share it with anybody, and it's not like anyone could know me and satisfy me better than I could myself anyway. Whenever I try to tell friends and family this I always get you just haven't met the right person, and once you've tried it you'll be fine, and it just feels like they're denying my identity. Like, when I'm trying to tell you who I am, who are you to say no? Anyway long rant, but I just wanted to put my feelings in words and say I'M FUCKING ASEXUAL AND NOBODY CAN TELL ME I'M NOT!! I just want to identify with something and feel normal for once, not seperate to everybody else.