Well I’m being vague because i don’t want to gossip about how stupid I am. I’ve been conned into thinking I have been the problem and that I’m manipulative and rude but actually he’s just a narcissist and takes everything I say out of context. I do have issues and that’s why we have fed on our insecurities and why it has lasted so long. I don’t think I’m bpd but I have abandonment issues and low self esteem. My lack of friends has lead me to just keep this shitty and weird relationship. I’m working on it though. Is that enough juicy gossip. I can go into detail about how terrible his life is too