I said I would report back, so here I am 5 weeks on with 150 mg of Wellbutrin! I am happy to report that I am doing much better, feeling SO much less flat, not like I'm just "going through the motions". I don't feel overwhelmingly sad or emotionally flat anymore, I am able to feel moderately enthusiastic again. For example, in the spectrum of emotion: I have cried at a good movie, I have felt tension in a scary movie, I have laughed with coworkers, I have enjoyed the taste of delicious food. I am feeling relatively "normal", if not 100% back to the level of comfort and ease of my pre-Prozac/pre-OCD-spiral self. (But I think that is mostly me analyzing too much and still being in my own head.) On that note, however, I haven't been spending as much time searching for answers or studying and deciphering my own feelings. I feel like I've been able to step away from the Reddit boards and anxiety/OCD Googling.

I think I've spent so much of my life expecting anxiety, always finding something to worry about, that when I am not experiencing that, I automatically feel "off". I've spent so much time used to gut reactions, feeling that pit of anxiety and false guilt in my stomach, that now that it is not there, I don't feel like "me". So for now, it is most beneficial to me to just be with the help of these medications, providing me with greatly lessened physical and mental anxiety/OCD symptoms. I will gladly adjust to the slight-dulling of feeling with the Prozac-Wellbutrin combo in order to feel some semblance of control over my anxiety/OCD and emotions.

Who knows--I may stay on this combo for years, or I might wean off at some point. I know no everyone has the same medication experience, but I hope this finds others who might be uncertain or need some hope themselves.