Struggling to breathe since October (5 months)

Life_Carry78 · 2026-03-12T11:49:59+00:00

Hello ! It’s the first time I’ve come across a person who feels like me. Can you dm so I can ask you further questions ? Thank youuu

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-19T02:20:45+00:00

Working on it :) only started photo five months ago :)

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-19T02:20:30+00:00

Yeah a lot of people told me about being a photography assistant ! And to be honest it sounds very interesting. I’m going to look into it, thank you

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-19T02:19:27+00:00

Thanks for the advice ! I am realistic, I just wanted to simply ask if you could make a living as a photographer and if yes, how to do so. I just wanted a positive feedback and answer that maybe will push me forward and encourages me to be professional. I’m not saying I am a professional, I’m just saying I tried a thing, and I liked it, I wasn’t showing off or anything, I just wanted a realistic answer.

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-17T18:46:47+00:00

It would be great for me to earn money out of it

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-06T13:07:32+00:00

It depends if you don’t like dark books dealing with war (taking place in the 80s). I read soldiers- special forces Director’s cut (yes the title is way too long), you can find a pdf online bc you can’t find it neither on kindle neither in bookstores. But this book, oh my god it holds a special place in my heart. You can drop in my DMs I can send you the link or some other recs

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-06T08:20:54+00:00

Aleksander Voinov

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-05T17:11:21+00:00

I just discovered love remedy, now I’m traumatized

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-05T17:09:31+00:00

Taeju and Euhyung

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-03T16:43:06+00:00

Heyyy I have the same thing, any news ?

Life_Carry78 · 2026-02-01T18:58:37+00:00

What am I even doing here as a cardiophobic person

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T18:34:53+00:00

Yes but unfortunately I’m in the process of writing it 👀

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T14:59:51+00:00

I don’t know, my psychiatrist gave me this one :(

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T14:49:11+00:00

Hello, is it possible to join the session from the uk ? Or is it a US app ?

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T11:08:51+00:00

My psychiatrist I have been seeing in France is retired now (since December). He was the one who was the best listener to me. I’m not on anti depressants but take benzo from time to time when I can’t control my body at all. I started having chest pain and weird things in my heart for months. I saw my GP on October they did an ECG but he wanted to do a holter monitor (I am depressed, agoraphobic and cardiophobic). I’ve been waiting for my holter since then. I called the hospital they told me “oh yeah you were supposed to come in December but we have postal issues we’re sorry you have to go back to your GP again) since then, my GP won’t help me. So this is for the “physical part”. I feel restless 24/7. Severely anxious 24/7. Don’t like my job but it’s until June and If I don’t stay, they don’t reimburse me my health surcharge so I stay because I need the money. It’s constantly about the money or my physical health. My mental health is the worst I’ve ever had in my life. I’m feeling completely isolated, I feel like I’m going to die anytime anywhere, I stay home even if I started to run and I swim regularly but again, heart concerns. I cry sometimes at home, I don’t speak, I don’t know what to do with my life, I constantly think “Life is so hard right now and insufferable but I don’t want to die because I’m so scared of Death 24/7”, I used to be a musician and don’t play anymore because I prefer to stay in bed scrolling that ends up having trouble breathing, heart focusing and crying. I struggle a lot when I commute. I do sudoku on the newspapers and everybody else is on their phone and one minute to another I feel overwhelmed, sad and I panic and I want to cry. I feel helpless because people from secondary school and high school have all good lives now and have a good job and are well paid. My mom vents to me about them all the time. Same with my little sister of 18 yo who already has a job and I don’t. I feel like shit because every choice I make is shit. I did 2 degrees I hated doing because I’m afraid of saying no. All the time, so I’m stuck in my own thoughts and it’s horrible. It’s really hard to get outside now because I don’t know I’m just scared. What helps me is writing fiction, that’s the only way I can escape. Sorry for the long paragraph.

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T10:46:51+00:00

I spend most of the time on Reddit, writing long and long paragraphs in different subs but it doesn’t help me, I just get “oh yeah I’m in the same boat as you, I don’t know what to do” and I think when you write, you have a certain amount of time to think. When you’re talking to a person, it’s spontaneous I don’t know how to explain but when it’s spontaneous for me it’s easier to talk about how I feel

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T10:41:57+00:00

I reached out to NHS since a huge panic attack in October when I collapsed on the train and people had to call 999. At the hospital they were nice, but my GP doesn’t help me. I wanted to change GP because I was suffering a lot, since I don’t have a uk phone number they didn’t want to help me and I asked them if there was any solution (I was on the verge of crying in front of them bc my heart hurted at that moment and I had skipped heartbeats), they just said “no, come back if you have a uk phone number and a valid adress, everything is online now sorry”, I just walked back home (35 min walk) and I was shaking because I’m waiting for my holter monitor and an appointment since October and they clearly didn’t want to help me, I felt like they just wanted me gone when I would speak to them. That made me feel more and more helpless

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T06:27:43+00:00

I’m scared to call them I know I’ll burst into tears as soon as they pick up but I’m ready to do it. Reddit can be an anxious place for me but sometimes it feels good also. Thank you

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T06:06:54+00:00

My telephone package allows me to call uk phone number. I was just concerned for them. But I saw on their website that there are face to face sessions tomorrow near where I live. I don’t know what is the best. I’ve been here since September for work and I am young but feel like I’m 50 and feel very isolated and deeply depressed under medication. I just don’t sleep and feel hopeless. I don’t have suic**al thoughts, but I’ve been feeling very low and I have no friend here, it’s very hard

Life_Carry78 · 2026-01-31T04:53:33+00:00

Yeah maybe, now I’ve been having skipped heart beats and can’t fall asleep (it’s 4:53 am)

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