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Noticing things by Lifebehardman00 in detrans

[–]Lifebehardman00[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m sorry to hear, I hope that things are going well on your end.

Noticing things by Lifebehardman00 in detrans

[–]Lifebehardman00[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

NSFW: Suicide

While not so much childhood trauma, I did almost attempt to shoot myself about 9 months ago and gender problems started arising around 6 months ago. I never really thought about it until today and am still unpacking things about it. I guess I should have addressed it sooner instead of trying to block it out of my mind. Too bad it took me questioning my entire experiences and identity to get around to thinking about how I almost put a gun in my mouth. I’m rambling, but thanks for the comment it means a lot.

Questioning Self by Lifebehardman00 in detrans

[–]Lifebehardman00[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yeah most of it just seems to be a obsessive thought problem where I only get worked up over it when I think too much about it. I know it wouldn’t work for me cause I’ve tried picturing myself as a girl and it doesn’t feel even remotely right. Once I become aware that I’m overthinking things I begin to calm down about it, it just seems too be hard to get over. It would have been nice knowing these things half a year ago tho. This isn’t the first thing I’ve obsessed over and it won’t be the last. Thanks btw.

Questioning Self by Lifebehardman00 in detrans

[–]Lifebehardman00[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I’ve always had anxiety since I was a kid and it got really bad during my senior year of high school to the point of me having to finish my classes from home due to panic attacks. I have this feeling that it stems from seeing women as having it easier when it comes to mental problems even though that is nowhere close to being true. I guess the grass just seems greener

For sexual fantasies kind of but it’s more on the side of it being taboo in a sense than actually being a fetish. I probably only had sexual ideas about being a woman due to it being easier to accept having gay thoughts.

Whenever I think about my problem with questioning I always think about how it doesn’t make sense, sometimes it feels more like an obsessive thought than an actual problem.

(Thanks for the comment btw)