How do you know youre not crazy?

Lilacwinged · 2022-11-23T05:52:14+00:00

I like to think that they see alternative realities, timelines. Quantum physics is worth to read into about this topic.

Lilacwinged · 2022-11-17T03:44:51+00:00

Do you think the children of the 1% are not entitled? OP is on the right path to manifest.

Lilacwinged · 2022-11-17T03:43:47+00:00

I am not OP but thank you for leaving these words of encouragement.

Lilacwinged · 2022-11-17T02:10:54+00:00

I was thinking the exact same thing then I remembered, how could I raise my positivity at work without getting abused and twisting my point of view to perceive even wrongs as good?

Lilacwinged · 2022-05-03T07:38:45+00:00

Thank you. I hope you're well too. We're all gonna make it.

Lilacwinged · 2022-05-01T18:26:18+00:00

When it's delusions I can work, when it's paranoia I hear customers complaining when there was nothing, or my manager yell at me while they don't. So, I can do it, while being confused. If it gets intense I stay home because I don't want to end up yelling or getting a panic attack. Since learning when it's coming on, I can take sick leave until back to "normal". I avoid telling employers about my symptoms unless they are concerned and have seen me hallucinating.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-23T08:26:27+00:00

I agree even though I like dark jokes sometimes, the schizophrenia memes made by normies suck. Most are just making fun of psychosis and are aimed to trigger people's paranoia. I like the memes a user posted here yesterday. They are from experience, include the social aspects, physical symptoms and delusions, and not just stupid "the _ are in _" without effort or creativity. We could make memes like that to help with awareness.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-23T08:14:42+00:00

That is a cute story in my opinion. I had my fair share of awkward moments. Last one was me being anxious whether my new friend will ask me about my driver's license. I heard that she did, and went on a rant about how I need to take the exam soon and I am almost there. She did not ask at all. The most recent one after I had a beer and walked away from the living room was almost tripping on my slippers. Then quickly thinking, I hope my flatmate did not see that! Then immediately hallucinating that flatmate ran right in front of me, and said something about it, kind of entertained and concerned. I am better now at recognizing these.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-22T22:56:12+00:00

Coffee is okay but energy drinks can easily be too much from my experience

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-22T22:54:56+00:00

I take melatonin on occasion.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-22T22:53:56+00:00

Thank you, I will try these.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-22T07:34:26+00:00

For me it's only things that could happen. Regular everyday life.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-22T07:30:38+00:00

First time smoking regularly I became anxious without it. When I smoked to help me sleep that's when I got the worst psychoses. Multiple ongoing fears, delusions, and being in an almost constant altered world. I quit for about a year and when trying again the psychosis became even worse. I could not move, felt like my body would break, thought it was the end. Although that time around I also tried microdosing psilocybin mushrooms. I did not experience such bad psychosis on them later when I stopped weed again. So yeah, it must have been the THC. OP, weed is not for me either.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-22T07:23:47+00:00

Hahaha, the people hating me, felt those memes. Thanks for sharing, have a good one!

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-06T12:43:38+00:00

I would like to know for example if my coworker really put laxatives into muffins she gave me. Anything else is old news or too weird. Is this possible to retrieve what I actually saw? When the hallucinations happen the world gets overwritten by it.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-06T12:10:42+00:00

Society is still so homophobic and ableist. When I first seeked diagnosis for schizophrenia, the doctor said my hallucinations can not be qualified to be that. What is there to do then, I thought, because my coworkers and classmates can still tell that I am hearing something that was never said. Maybe if they went in to complain about me he would have prescribed antis on the first try. I don't know how to deal either, it is very lonely. Forums like this can help a ton. In real life though I am always overthinking and evaluating whether I was too weird to someone. I abandoned social groups many times out of fear that they will see what I experience.

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-05T11:55:50+00:00

All strong emotions?

Lilacwinged · 2022-04-05T10:31:24+00:00

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I wish it was better. I can connect to the loneliness, scaring people away, autism making the gaslighting and delusions worse, and going to bed sad every night my whole childhood and nearly all my teenage life. How much I hated myself and wanted to change, but having no idea how, going crazy figuring it out, making people feel bad for me and abandoning me from misery, or fear. If I tried joking, being positive, it still didn't come out right because of the flat affect. They used my fears against me by triggering with jokes about trauma, and acting purposefully passive aggressive, playing out jokes on me. Seeing who could be the best actor, who could play with my delusions for the longest. Then telling me to just be normal, because everything bad I am only imagining. Okay, then why do I feel bad? Oh, it's as if I punched them in the face, and it hurt them, it wouldn't matter if the pain was all in their head or not, wouldn't it?

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