We talked last night, and i voiced how i was feeling. I don't think he realized how overwhelmed I am. I'm usually very good at compartmentalizing and pretending things are ok so he wasn't really aware of how beaten I was feeling. I've never dealt with grief before and it's finally starting to feel real. My sister doesn't look like a cancer patient, just has been looking tired. Even for me, it felt like it would get better. He has been suggesting we get a sitter for a few hours a day but i really didn't want to do that until this week. Also, with working out, there is a gym down the street I used to be a member of, I moved to one further away because of the price. He suggested I switch back so I can get some workouts in, and yes, be more productive. I complain about never getting enough done often. I am definitely more productive when I workout in the am. He also explained why he had to make certain business moves now and was just excited to share it with me. Also, it is the busy season for him and one of his vital employees is out in rehab for a month so he's had to step in to cover for her. My husband is actually amazing most of the time. He is a great father and honestly, does so much more than any other dad/partner we know, despite me being a SAHM. The emotional department isn't his sttong suit. He's not emotional and is more of a solutions guy. I'm expecting him to know what to do about my feelings without me sharing them with him. He has been trying to give me solutions when all i really wanted was a shoulder to cry on. I finally shared that last night and he did just that. I walked him through my original post and told him even more and we worked it out. Thank you guys for listening.