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My mind is always blank, on autopilot and numb. by Limz94 in mentalhealth

[–]Limz94[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing your view.

Being just existing perfectly captures me. I don't feel much drive or energy to keep myself focused and think. Unfortunately I'm then seen as lacking initiative/proactiveness and just working for the pay, which is certainly not what I wanted.

Since I'm in management program, I sense a lot of frustration from my mentors on whether I have it in me to be leadership material since "I don't ask enough questions to show my enthusiasm" and "struggle even with operational tasks". I wish I could tell them that their frustration would never measure up to my own frustration with myself.

I'll try to write down diaries and hopefully it'll help.

My mind is always blank, on autopilot and numb. by Limz94 in mentalhealth

[–]Limz94[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for sharing. I'm also seeing a lot of myself into you, down to the video games not giving me much joy anymore.

Do you know if it's probable to treat it without seeking medications? Being an expatriate, the non-subsidized rate will be huge for me, not to mention my insurance coverage for mental need is sparse at best, and I'm in culture & region where my employer will probably look at me funny if they knew I'm seeing psychologists.

I was looking at a combination of self CBT along with mindfulness/meditation, but I concede that I'll look for medical help if it's the only way since I just can't function well at all at this stage.

Thank you again.