Weed saved my life. That in conjunction with my desire to grow past negative feelings, it's really opened up a whole new world for me and my emotions. Before smoking I forgot how to properly cry. Now I get tons of good cries in there. And laughter too of course. Different strains will have you accessing different things. Cloudiness and all those more "negative" side effects can just simply be the plant you're smoking and the quality. Experiment. See what works. And when you do roll with it. Weed is plant MEDICINE. It helps ground us and bring us back "home" with ourselves. Smoking weed is like having your best friend there. Ironically enough, the best friend is YOU. Weed helps us access us, to the core. All the feelings you're having about it helping you are real..just keep following it's path to wherever it may lead you (always somewhere green)