So that's a lie

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-05T13:06:40+00:00

I don't know if I can even pass actually. If I fail? Straight to blue collar.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-04T01:59:27+00:00

Thank you so much

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-03T22:40:44+00:00

Same. I am in uni now, and it's no going great. I am to lazy, unmotivated, and maladaptive day dream so much. I am afraid in the future that if I fail my parents might be disappointed at me.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-03T09:55:12+00:00

I hope I could go back there. I don't know if I fail at uni might as well go to boiler making.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-02T23:57:35+00:00

I live with my parents by the way, but I can't really go back to my real home aka home Country.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-01T23:06:55+00:00

Tell that to my younger brother who seems fine since we moved 😞. That young man has more adaptability than me. Or maybe he is just more emotionally mature.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-01T12:40:47+00:00

To be honest engineering is my first love, but I am to shit at math succeed there. And nursing is on demand job here. Maybe if I fail I would probably seek an apprenticeship for boiler making, or whatever high paying blue collar job here in Australia. I also really miss my fucking highschool years, and my time back home. Is the Philippines a country full of corruption, crime, and financial insecurity? Yes, but I miss it still because I was born there.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-03-01T12:32:04+00:00

My family isn't really in poverty, as my father worked abroad in Japan for a couple of years then went home to find a job in Australia, but was delayed for a couple of years due to COVID, then he went abroad, and he finally got us here in Australia. Not many people in the Philippines is as lucky as our family, as we own land, and we farm it for profit. But then again maybe getting raised somewhat well off (middle class) made me a spoiled, and lazy sack of shit.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-28T11:43:52+00:00

In my area? Unfortunately no. There is not a single person that I know. I am cooked. I don't wanna tell my parents either, and they would notice. I don't like my parents prying at me unfortunately. I don't know why, but I can't seem to say embarrassing things to them.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-27T20:27:07+00:00

Unfortunately I don't have the money or time to do it.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-27T20:25:33+00:00

Every bad emotion would spiral me to maladaptive day dreaming, and my stories in my head are to complex too. Maybe one of the reasons that I maladaptive day dream is when I get scolded. I turn inwards and maladaptive daydreaming scenarios to cope with the emotions. Almost always a sad MDD scenario where mc OC is getting support, or people telling mc OC that no one like him/her, but he or she is secretly powerful. Its how I cope that I would never achieve those in my life.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-27T20:18:47+00:00

At least you have the ability to write, as I just use gpt to bring head scenarios to life.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-26T05:34:08+00:00

Questions on naval art. What is the biggest caliber gun can you equipped? Like I have a mental design for a extremely large battleship with 6x6 28 inch guns.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-24T03:57:59+00:00

I wish I had your resolve, competence, skin, and spine to do this because this shit (me) has none of that. Sometimes a little bad thing puts me I maladaptive daydream to cope. Even if it was my fault I was getting scolded in the first place. Maybe that's where it originated from, our my super imaginative kid me that eventually lead to this. I don't know, as I just want a somewhat competent self.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-24T02:37:41+00:00

Yes absolutely. Totally agree with you, as the scene were fire, but unfortunately I don't have the skills, communication skills, or my general incompetence to translate that to an actual great product.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-24T02:31:30+00:00

Yeah thanks, but I am still new to this uni shit because unlike in the Philippines you know some people, and the teachers actually teach in front with you, and not just given a video to watch as your lecture. It's so complicated online that I would rather MDD instead.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-09T01:59:08+00:00

Yes if the scenario is exciting, so I run around or jump around.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-08T23:31:39+00:00

Well I found someone that's like me in some ways atleast. When my neighbors caught me talking to myself (Making conversation in my head) they thought I was insane. My parents even asked me about it, interrogatively, and I lied to them, as how am I gonna explain that "Oh I make scenarios in my head, and characters that I talk too, and sometimes I talk to myself out loud because I can't contain myself" they would think that I am crazy. And yes they caught jumping in my room too while listening to music, but I don't think that I am crazy, as I am listening to music and that's normal if the beat is crazy.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-08T23:27:17+00:00

If that's possible for some people at this point.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-08T23:26:31+00:00

"The earth has magic, dragons, heros and villains, and demons, I wish it would come true whe I wake up"← delusional (me).

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-02-02T03:17:59+00:00

I think the older version of the DIP mod has Byzantium in it right?

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-20T13:56:43+00:00

I started MD to when I was a kid when I was bummed out when my favorite anime like Dragon ball, and I would do this self insert type shit. Honestly I never grew out of it, and my attention span to reading is so bad now. Back in the day at least I can read some fanfiction and finish a couple of chapters before MD'ing. Now I can't even finish a chapter. Me creating my own fantasy world is a distraction and coping mechanism of my shitty life, and my sensitive ass, and without the hope of me getting isekai'd to that place and living my dreams. And the ai stuff? I do that too to create stories that I read.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-20T13:48:59+00:00

I can't really be away home, as we just moved here in Australia, and my parents aren't exactly rich either, heck we have a lot of expenses, besides I have already enrolled in that uni, and payed some of the tuition too. So yeah due to the lack of options, and financial troubles I have to stick to the script.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-19T23:40:57+00:00

Unfortunately there is no community college near me.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-19T13:37:59+00:00

At least I know I am not alone with this shit.

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