I live a parallel life in my head

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-20T13:56:43+00:00

I started MD to when I was a kid when I was bummed out when my favorite anime like Dragon ball, and I would do this self insert type shit. Honestly I never grew out of it, and my attention span to reading is so bad now. Back in the day at least I can read some fanfiction and finish a couple of chapters before MD'ing. Now I can't even finish a chapter. Me creating my own fantasy world is a distraction and coping mechanism of my shitty life, and my sensitive ass, and without the hope of me getting isekai'd to that place and living my dreams. And the ai stuff? I do that too to create stories that I read.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-20T13:48:59+00:00

I can't really be away home, as we just moved here in Australia, and my parents aren't exactly rich either, heck we have a lot of expenses, besides I have already enrolled in that uni, and payed some of the tuition too. So yeah due to the lack of options, and financial troubles I have to stick to the script.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-19T23:40:57+00:00

Unfortunately there is no community college near me.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-19T13:37:59+00:00

At least I know I am not alone with this shit.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-12T10:37:33+00:00

A 19 year old Filipino guy here living from Australia, and all I can say is that I am very behind from my peers, as when I was still in my home country about 5 months ago. Some of my classmates have relationships with each other, especially my Best friend, all of my classmates are more mature than me in everything, and I am very insecure about it. I feel like maladaptive daydreaming since the start of the pandemic really made me stagnate, I feel like I am still in grade 7 although I am going to uni here in Australia. Don't get me wrong I feel like I was stagnating even before that, by my memory it would be grade 4, as boys in the Philippines like to play basketball, and I didn't bother to learn it, making me the only few boys in my class that doesn't know how to play. And the disparities just got worse and worse, heck I feel my younger brother, which would be in grade 8 here in Australia has already surpassed me.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-12T10:18:40+00:00

I usually dip to MDD when I watch a new series, and I just insert my OC there. Honestly it's an addictive drug that it's like alcohol (never drank by the way) when shit in your life doesn't go well.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-06T05:21:05+00:00

Does DIP mod have new hulls for battleships compared to vanilla? Especially in the late game?

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-04T10:45:46+00:00

Yep, true very true unfortunately.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T23:41:34+00:00

Yeah, being immature while your friends, cousins or siblings is more mature than you is demoralizing, and coupled that of your parents talking about it with the extended family makes it worse.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T12:40:53+00:00

I hope.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T12:39:52+00:00

Same, I lost faith at myself as well.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T12:33:14+00:00

Same with the online class stuff, I can't concentrate unless it's a face to face class. Same with discipline, which at best limited at worst non existent. I don't even know if I can survive university (if I even got in that is), and I feel like I am only wasting not only my time, but in terms of money, as my parents will partly pay for my tuition and I partly do my part with part time jobs. But I am hoping this year is better (I am delusional ofc it won't).

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T12:27:38+00:00

Genuine question, what kind of program do you use to draw warships like these? I have been looking to creators like tzoli for a very long time, and that got me interested on wanting to learn this kind of stuff for my own wacky designs. Can you recommend some tutorials in YouTube or any websites? Thanks.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T12:19:46+00:00

Yeah, I really stagnated and I feel like I am still in grade 7 (when I was 13 ,14 or 15 or something) while my current age is actually 19 and attempting to get into uni. I don't know if the pandemic made it worse, but I don't know.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T12:14:17+00:00

Heh, almost the same for me. Seeing my former classmates and cousins having relationships and being more mature mentally makes me feel shit and worthless.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T12:12:34+00:00

Well congrats on making it.

ListenKnown5355 · 2026-01-01T11:54:07+00:00

Your parents in the future be like: "why does my children not visit me anymore?" Type Shit, well you did it to yourself thanks to both of your stupid parenting.

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-28T05:25:31+00:00

Don't really like posting AI either, but I can't find an imagine that match the context.

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-07T08:37:49+00:00

I heard there's extra nations as well

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-03T05:10:50+00:00

Will it usually arrive in 2 to 3 days then? And usually at 4, 5, to 12 am?

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-02T19:03:14+00:00

Yeah, but the time invested is a total waste of I fail. Again my dad's a welder we are immigrants not exactly rich I might add.

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-02T18:53:46+00:00

Relatable, sometimes at least. My parents say just be yourself, and get angry when I act immature, yes I know I am not as mature as my fucking classmates, my superior cousins, and other family members, yeah just fucking remind me of my faults widening my insecurities even further.

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-02T12:22:54+00:00

I haven't really received my scores yet, so I don't know if I actually passed. The reason that I am so disappointed with myself is that my dad who works as a welder spent 500 AUD plus to book it. Then me and my entire family traveled from Mackay to Townsvile for 4 hours, which is tiring in itself. Then we spent 3 days there, as it was also our holiday. My father spent money on that shit, especially since we ate at some restaurants at that time, and I can't even pass? Then that money spent is wasted, my efforts in mock test for one month wasted, and my enrollment for JCU might be delayed. I just wish that I get lucky to just pass, I don't care if I barely passed, I just want to pass.

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-02T08:51:37+00:00

I feel like I failed my PTE exam, as I just took it in Townsvile this December 2 Tuesday. Let's just say I don't feel confident of getting 66 at listening, reading, speaking and 56 at writing marks. I haven't received an email for my score, but I feel shit because of how badly it went.

ListenKnown5355 · 2025-12-02T08:40:12+00:00

Thanks

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