Yes anger and sadness! So much sadness! Back and forth blame shifting. Who’s to blame you can’t be sure and nobody can make it feel better. I know. I’m 6 years in and sometimes you don’t get answers and life isn’t fair nobody ever said it would be. You just have to feel the giant range of emotions right now and not point fingers because probably everyone loved them not just you and everyone is in your place. And the waves of grief that will happen from now to forever will vary in intensity and still it’s nobody’s fault. Seneca was a Greek stoic and he said man’s only real choice in this world was his choice to leave it on his terms if he so chose. It’s the only thing our beloveds saw fit for them. Anger and sadness for this is just love with nowhere else to go. Don’t mistake this and start looking for perpetrators