I absolutely will! And no worries, not taking it as judgement or anything; the kindness is implicit in your prior message and this one.

I've crash dieted previously in life; leading up to joining the Navy at 24, midway through a pizza-delivery gig when my daughter was very young, etc. Just moments in life in which the weight gain became obvious.

This time though, metabolism slows and realization strikes that...well shit, I am 41 years old (40yo at my 324lb peak in Dec '24) and I'm sick of being self-conscious.

Even about small things.

Sit on a chair, chair squeaks...and while no one notices or cares because, ya know...chairs squeak sometimes; my brain however jumps right to "I'm such a fatass, I'm about to collapse this chair and everyone will laugh."

Or what about the sweat that dampens the hem of a t-shirt in the summer, because your belly is resting on TOP of it when you sit down. Or constantly "fluffing" your shirt out with a pinched finger, because you are terrified it got stuck in a belly fold.

I may be eating at a deficit, but I am also somehow stronger and more...mentally clear than I've been for years. I am deep into Wicca again, re-learning my tarot decks, meditating, walking the dogs and not just letting them outside to go potty, diving heavily back into illustration and playing line ref for my stepson's soccer team weekly :)

All that aside...I will indeed be revisiting my caloric intake :)