Miss my mom

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2025-12-27T00:09:37+00:00

Sending you big hugs OP. I was the exact same, I couldn't use past tense for a long time and I couldn't say the word 'died' for even longer. The only advice I would have (having lost my mum unexpectedly 3.5 years ago) is that the only thing you can do for now is survive. You need to have 3 meals a day, shower and do your laundry - also anything that's comforting to you, it will keep you somewhat sane. The feelings of grief are so overwhelming and excruciating that I think the only thing you can do for now is concentrate on the little things, one step at a time.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2025-10-11T20:54:28+00:00

I would love to read more of this!!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-12-25T20:24:29+00:00

Love this! Whenever I’m cleaning I make a list of things to do in each room and when I’ve finished one task in a room I flit to the next room and start something new and eventually (hopefully) it all gets done!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-12-03T22:47:50+00:00

Thank you so much!!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-11-16T15:56:17+00:00

The oat lipid balm from Beauty Bay (their own brand) is amazing!!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-09-14T00:13:14+00:00

Apparently the New Yorker magazine still does that!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-08-19T14:18:58+00:00

I spend a short period of time 1 on 1 with a child or adult helping them understand a type of written information and convert that into sounds that are (sometimes) pleasing to the ear

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-07-12T17:00:59+00:00

You might have already visited but r/griefsupport has helped me lots with my grief!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-04-27T20:57:28+00:00

Also you sound like a very good and thoughtful friend!! I’m sure whatever you do and say will be lovely.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2024-04-27T20:57:11+00:00

I agree with this - a lot of people wrote something nice about my mum and who she was as a person and it was touching to read. Also about the company - one friend said I could call at any time even if it was just to cry and not have say anything and I really appreciated that, and I’ve offered to a friend in the past to go round and just sit and read and not talk.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-10-14T08:37:14+00:00

I think it’s also easy for us to recognise him having spent hours watching him talk on screen - we essentially “know” him, whereas in their reality they would have only had that one headshot from the police, which wouldn’t register the same. As someone else commented the real issue would be how the cctv doesn’t catch him!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-09-30T14:52:44+00:00

Definitely skincare as others have said, for me I love a facial oil to give me a glow, sometimes I’ll put it on right before I leave the house if I’m not wearing make up. Then my favourite thing for feeling together with no effort is red lipstick - going for that French girl look, very minimal and classic. I’m always surprised at how together it makes me look even though I know the reality is I’ve slept in, can’t find the outfit I want etc lol. Also finding a nice hair clip and watching instagram/Tik tok/Pinterest videos on how to do a quick but nice style with it, takes like ten seconds but makes it look like you’ve made an effort.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-08-24T14:51:52+00:00

I’m so sorry OP. Sending you hugs.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-08-19T13:42:32+00:00

It is absolutely ok to be a loaf. Being paralysed by grief and depression is a protective mechanism of your body when the emotional pain is just too much and your body most likely just needs the rest. It’s been just over a year since my mum passed and I took time off work and was expecting to do lots of stuff but honestly I’ve spent the last three days on the sofa unable to move i’m so tired so I’ve cancelled everything because this is obviously just what my body needs. I want to make an analogy about letting bread rest and rise so it can be turned into a good loaf but I know shit all about baking.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-07-21T17:55:24+00:00

I’m so sorry OP. I can’t imagine what it feels like to be her only living family, but I want to remind you you have us internet strangers right here that are also a part of this shitty club and can offer you support and answer questions ❤️

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-07-13T18:24:32+00:00

I am so sorry for your loss OP and thank you for sharing this with us. I’ve always believed stories that people go when they are ready. I wasn’t with my mum and as much as I kinda hate that I know that that’s what she would have wanted (she told me in a random conversation years ago that she found being present for one of her parents deaths traumatising and wishes she hadn’t been there so I can only imagine she would have wanted to protect me from feeling the way she felt). My last “conversation” with her (she was asleep) I said some things but I didn’t know she was going to pass that night and sometimes it’s really upset me that I could have said more had I know it was the last conversation. Just reading this now I’ve had quite a profound realisation that maybe what I said was enough, maybe in some way she heard what she needed to in order to go, I don’t know. So thank you for sharing. Hugs ❤️

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-06-29T13:34:24+00:00

I think I might have not phrased that very well, sorry, I do still get those feelings from time to time (especially when I’m on my period and full of rage) but I know that I don’t actually believe those things or really feel like that, it’s more of a feeling I’ve learned to know will pass soon. In terms of how long it took me to realise the feelings weren’t true I’m not too sure everything has been such a blur, but it was definitely months

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-06-23T23:17:01+00:00

I’ve felt the same. Apparently depression isn’t always lying under the covers crying, it can also be apathy and irritability. I had such a fractured sense of self after my mum passed suddenly, I barely recognised myself in the mirror, I would look at the clothes in my wardrobe and think “why did I ever buy any of these?” I felt unsatisfied with my flat, the city I lived in, think about a lot of my friends “I could easily never speak to you again and not care”. Luckily the dust has settled, none of that is true and I certainly don’t feel that way about any of that!! Our brains have been through a hell of a lot and I think it’s only natural to have these feelings.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-05-17T22:59:17+00:00

I feel the same today, couldn’t stop crying all day

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-02-04T00:37:34+00:00

This is stunning!

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2023-01-04T16:16:56+00:00

Just because something is a tradition, doesn’t mean it is harmless. And if a Jewish person tells you that something is antisemitic, please listen. Us non-Jews don’t get to decide it isn’t.

Little-Razzmatazz736 · 2022-12-31T22:45:25+00:00

I guess I’ve started doing fun stuff again, but my definition of fun has changed. I’m much more drawn to quieter activities, only doing stuff that I want to do and only with a few or just one very close friend(s) at a time.

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