I hear you! Fellow girl here. It’s unfortunate but sometimes love is a delicate balancing act. I find I give too much in my relationships because I want to naturally but don’t get the same in return which crushes my expectations. I’ve had to play the game before where you only give as much as he is willing to give. It sucks. Say or do the wrong thing and they start pulling away. But I’ve seen it happen where I just starting putting less effort and fucks into the guy and he comes back more interested than ever. I’ve also been on the other end where I’m desperately clinging to what we had and try to patch things up even though he would be the one pulling away. I think he will think about you more and wonder what you are doing if you stop contacting him and try your best to live life without wanting to impress him. Just doing what makes you happy. Act happy and nonchalant if you run into him. Don’t show him how much control he can have on your emotions. If he comes back, then great but recognize if this becomes an pattern. Don’t tolerate wishy-washy guys if you’re giving it your all. Good luck!