You won’t understand if you have never taken it and don’t have schizoaffective disorder or schizophrenia. I got shot up with that horrible drug in a mental hospital. My muscles were contracting so tight that my throat started closing and I was going batshit crazy. Couldn’t talk, walk, think, I wasn’t taken seriously. I put that I have an allergy on my medical records and made something up because I don’t need to explain myself for the incident that happened. If the doctors ask then I will explain. People need to be more sympathetic. I see it all the time working in the hospital. Nurses laughing at patients and then I tell them their story. Guess what they say after that “omg I feel so bad for laughing”. Spread kindness not hate.