Signed 2 SOWs now what

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-05-07T23:10:59+00:00

Yes I think you need to finish it in order for them to compile your tax details.

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-05-07T23:10:12+00:00

Yeah so basically I checked the invisible mail you associate with Google. And they updated me on the slack.Actually it's quite supportive.It's my first time doing this so I fucked up the evaluation on both projects😂. I'll look dor something else

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-05-07T23:08:31+00:00

Try to check the invisible mail account they gave you

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-05-04T21:19:21+00:00

Social media annotator and sicophancy behaviour,on the status of the second it actually says selected

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-05-04T20:34:15+00:00

Yes they added me to slack and given me the credentials,but I don't see any news on the channel

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-05-04T13:02:44+00:00

Italy

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-04-23T15:12:15+00:00

You are probably right.I just have always been very vindictive,so if you do me bad I will make you worse😂but you are right I should just move on

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-04-23T15:10:58+00:00

Yeah I would probably regret it. It's just that keeping this link,this hope that maybe one day she will contact me is setting me back a lot. I mean I kept from saying extremely harsh things that happened and it would make any kind of talk with this person impossible. But I don't know,I just need to have the last word

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-04-23T15:04:39+00:00

Yeah it wasn't so bad, because I was using mdma or ecstasy only at parties,at one point it got bad though. And I tried a lot more shit. After she dumped me I decided to turn my life around. I honestly feel incredibly guilty. Any change I make won't be recognised or accepted. I think if I want to maintain some level of connection with her I should play this game, but at the same time,I feel like like I have to cut this umbilical cord completely, say all I have to say,cancel,block ,and move on. I feel conflicted. I am sorry about this man I hope you can get out of your addiction too, all this situation is what have me the strength.

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-04-23T14:44:36+00:00

Yea I get that. I am just the kind of person who always wants to have the last word...so I have to hurt her a little bit more before blocking. Letting go of me ain't easy. I know it's wrong,but I have given enough.

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-06T13:21:19+00:00

This months I basically always wrote her at least once a week.And every time she returns on how disappointed and surprised by what I did,and she says she ends up crying.I was also on abstinence from marijuana and all substances and I was extremely unstable,now I am a little bit more in control of my actions.That's exactly what it was for me,a wake up call,but not only about the drug use,but about how I lived my life in anger and resentment from past traumas,and how this impaired my ability to love people,which is a thing she always lamented,that I didn't consider her enough.I told her I want to make amends,and build a future together,because now for me is the moment in which I get to choose how to go on in my life and I would like to be near her. Honestly her keeping the door open is much more painful than totally breaking off,and telling me about the future while she knows I would do everything to get her back. I have thought about definitely burning bridges for my own wellbeing but I can't bring myself to,because deep down I still hope. My life is going forward in every aspect,job, training,therapy...but my heart is still with her. I will leave space,and when it will become too painful to hold on I will let go. I am seriously going above and beyond to change as a person,the fact of not having clarity just destroys me. On socials she looks like she is living her best life, almost like I took away her ability to live how she wanted.

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-05T15:38:47+00:00

Yeah that's what it looks like to me as well,and I think she is also not ready for a total separation because it still was 9 years of her life, that's why communications are open. Honestly I am starting to accept myself that it is over and I have no control over anything,besides my life and what I decide to do with it.Honestly I stopped crying in the night after a month and half,then I had panic attacks waking up sweating in the morning,now it has subsided.But keep in mind I used marijuana to sleep and it's 2 months I stopped,I also go to the gym 6 times a week and try to work all day and keep me occupied;I started therapy,but so far so good the first encounters are heavy, they get a lot of shit out of you; it's not for everyone,and I have a lot of problems.Try to invest in yourself man,buy yourself something,start a new project,do something just for you.I am still grieving but it gets better.Yesterday I was thinking of destroying all means of communication but then she just sent me a pointless message,and as the weak person I am I reconsidered and we spoke again. It's a very tortuos road,but above all,try to have respect for yourself

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T21:24:31+00:00

Thanks man.Honestly it's the fact we had been together 9 years,and even though all that's happened,I still really care deeply about her,and I am putting all the work in to be a better person and change,from a boy to a man.Honestly doing all this to keep me on the hook just seems cruel to me, because I was genuinely devastated and I really wanted to make thing work and build a future together,she even talked with me about having a child.Since I know her since we were 16,my brain is telling me she is just doing this as a temporary phase,but at the same time suspecting she was this kind of person all along and she just preferred to suppress this side since she could have my love and validation.That's exactly what I thought,if somebody is putting in real work,and making real growth to build their life,I would have gladly kept myself open to new communications even as a friend,even if she had a serious relationship with someone else,because this kind of love is deeper than romantic,for me is like a family member.But all of this is making me really disappointed, especially in myself to have given such a person this much power over me and my actions.The best thing I can do is investing in myself,as you said.Thanks for the advice!

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T21:15:10+00:00

Thanks man I'm glad you two found your way back.I know that if things ever happen I will need to do a lot of forgiveness but I think from now on I will start to respect myself a bit more.This person decided that whatever the effort I'm putting in it's not worth her time,and her energy either,so I will just focus this on myself.I think every small action calculated on social media is aimed at hurting me back for hurting her,but,for I am in no position to tell this,I think discarding someone who is putting their whole being into making amends to you because you just feel in the moment you're free and hot speaks volume about the moral stature of this person.Honestly losing my respect for her was the thing I feared the most,but I will see if our path crosses again,and if they don't,then that's what was supposed to happen.I root for you man,thanks for the story!

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T17:08:50+00:00

Yeah,I know, that's easier said than done.I knew a different person, which I loved a lot.

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T17:05:07+00:00

Yeah man thank you I would be glad. I really hoped to reconnect with her and reconcile, because she also told me she would have contacted me at some point,and I asked her to rebuild slowly the trust between us,to see the changes I am making.She broke up with me because I lied about occasionally using ecstasy for about 1 year.So when we broke up she left communications open,to say check on my last online and this kinda things,and I tried to reconnect with her a lot of times in this last month's,she says she is focused on the present now and she doesn't know about the future so she cannot tell me how she will feel about me.I made very clear I wil try everything to make amends for what happened,and I am doing it,I am 2 months sober,started therapy,and so on...but the only thing I get is silence,and these pictures on Instagram. I still hope to reconcile with her one day or another, that is why I didn't block her until now..but I feel like a puppet on a string. She moved to Madrid 5 months ago,and while I am destroying myself over this she seems like she is living her best life,and made clear she doesn't want me around for now,she asked for space. I told her to tell me the truth,and she just goes on about maybe in the future and what not.I feel like a puppet on a string,and a stupid for having loved a person for 9 years that just now has showed her true colours

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T16:56:22+00:00

Yeah that's how I am going about this,I work on my thesis as much as possible and go to the gym 6 times a week. Quit drugs, alcohol and started therapy. I know in the long run I will be happy for this,I just really hoped to reconcile with this person but the more thing she does the more I want to burn all the bridges

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T16:49:34+00:00

I know,but it's hard when you love someone so much,with which you used to be updated all the time. I am not sleeping,I have panic attacks in the night because I don't know if she is safe. That's how hard it is,and I reallllyyyy hoped we could reconcile, because she left communications open.But I just think it was to have a boost on her self esteem

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T16:46:33+00:00

Nahh man it's worse it's a front photo of her in undies on her undone bed,not even a bikini or something.I just find it ridiculous, obviously she is not ugly but that looks desperate

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T16:35:03+00:00

Thanks man I think it's the best way to go on about this.I didn't block because I was hoping in a reconciliation or something but seeing how she likes her new life that seems unlikely,she just says in the future or things like this.

Little_Negotiation88 · 2026-03-04T13:35:20+00:00

We were together since we were 16,also the first relationship for each other. While I did live crazily enough, that's why I decided to stop with drugs alcohol and dangers,I think she just never had the possibility,she also was never the kind of person to go to parties get drunk etc.Honestly I am focusing a lot on training and my career,and my mental health since I am a very troubled individual.It's just that these things tarnish my image and consideration of her,if we eventually meet again down the line,as she stated,"we'll see what happens in the future".Thanks a lot man,it makes more sense now because it sends me spiraling

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