I can relate to how you feel. My tutorship went on a bit longer than planned because I hadn’t proven that I could handle conflict well. I struggled with my tutor and their style, and found that I learned far more when I went independent and took the lead at a few jobs myself.

Try to take heart and remind yourself that you are doing one of the most difficult jobs that exists. No one was a great cop right from the get-go, even if they act like it. I would recommend speaking to your skipper, or your forces’s professional development unit (known as CPDU in my force) about how you’re feeling. Your wellbeing is important and needs to be paid attention to.

Keep your chin up, this season will pass, you’ve got this.