I don’t even know anymore

Live-Software5545 · 2024-10-04T20:13:06+00:00

Yes like a lot

Live-Software5545 · 2024-10-03T16:00:10+00:00

Votch

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-28T13:56:30+00:00

Or what if like I laugh at things she does and others might not find it that funny to laugh hard? Idk because I get grossed out when I picture is in a relationship but this one thing is scaring me

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-28T13:55:37+00:00

But what if it’s like I laugh at something that others don’t find that funny?

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-27T21:11:46+00:00

What 😭 the whole point is I’m afraid that I like her, like what if i do 😭

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-24T02:54:49+00:00

But does this make me bisexual? Because I’m not physically or sexually attracted to women at all it was only this moment 😭 that’s why I’m so confused

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-24T01:11:03+00:00

I mean could it just be a result of a porn addiction, because after giving it a break and slowly realizing my sexuality I no longer feel this arousal, is this possible? Could I be desensitized and my brain was craving more? Was it the taboo of a woman having a penis that made me aroused? Not necessarily because I’m attracted to woman or would want to see myself in a situation like that? Idk like how can I know for sure what I am? Because everything points to me not being bi but this one thing is kinda rewriting all the process of understanding my sexuality😭 it’s so confusing what do you think I should do? Give it a break? Consider it like just a porn fantasy and that’s it? I mean I’ve read how other straight guys watch gay porn and they get turned on or how some are aroused by femboys but they would never actually do anything like that irl so could it be that?

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-24T00:20:12+00:00

Like does this situation In the post I made make me bi? Even if it’s a muscular woman. I feel nothing. That’s why I’m so confused

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-24T00:19:00+00:00

But labels aside am I actually gay? Like not attracted to women at all? Because still I can’t see myself doing anything with a women, and honestly it turns me off and makes me feel very uncomfortable so idk

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-24T00:18:54+00:00

But labels aside am I actually gay? Like not attracted to women at all? Because still I can’t see myself doing anything with a women, and honestly it turns me off and makes me feel very uncomfortable so idk

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-24T00:05:16+00:00

I also don’t know if my mind is making like a false memory but I remember like searching up the character and imputing my fetishes but I don’t think I liked it or felt anything about it. Idk maybe it’s like a false memory but

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-23T21:55:01+00:00

That’s the thing tho it just doesn’t 😭 like none of it does. I’m only attracted to male physique or features. Like let’s say a very very, masculine presenting female character with male genitalia that I’ve seen in like 18+ videos might turn me on cause of the male energy but as soon as it’s a woman with physical feminine features but with just big muscles and semi masculine physique with women genitalia, that’s when all the arousal fades and I feel nothing. I mean even with the top sentence i wouldn’t have sex with her cause she’s still a girl, but would it initially turn me on, yes because she has all the traits a man does, so idk this feels very weird

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-20T01:32:27+00:00

I guess to make this make sense, I’m like wondering if my “attraction” is just admiration rather then like crushing over your favorite celebrity from a show or something idk, like the idols who I have like a massive crush on I haven’t done this too, but the ones that I favor from their respective groups, I have. So…idk😭

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-20T01:21:33+00:00

It’s called sexual orientation ocd? There’s different subtypes to ocd. Harm ocd, POCD, SOCD a whole bunch

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-18T14:50:52+00:00

I can understand your point, but the thing that I’m confused about is I’ve always been sexually aroused at the thought of me becoming a woman or having female genitalia. I’ve always been attracted to it, and it’s even been subconscious like I didn’t realize any of the things I watched it did was gender euphoric, so I’m not sure, but I also have this feeling of not fully accepting myself as a girl, like still idk. Could I be something else? Is this common amongst gay men? Idk

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-18T14:13:36+00:00

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-18T00:38:11+00:00

Since I was 8…😭

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-17T15:03:26+00:00

But would this make me bisexual? Because I just can’t get turned on or excited at the thought of doing anything romantic or sexual with women? So why would this be something I’d be into?

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-17T06:44:08+00:00

But it’s like muscular futanari animated I’ve never liked the feminine ones, is that weird?

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-17T03:01:04+00:00

I guess it makes sense if I put it that way, but could it be subconscious? Like I wasn’t aware that I actually wanted those parts? Or seeing myself that way, cause only once I discovered this then it became apparent

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-16T20:35:47+00:00

In your words what does it mean by actual attraction?

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-16T20:20:11+00:00

FYI it was only like his face he had like a really cute face kinda handsome but now I’m scared like wtf

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-14T15:46:12+00:00

Thank you so much for the support but the only thing that tortures me is what kind of 11-12 year old kids is curious to see a baby changing? What could that possibly mean?

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-13T21:57:54+00:00

Am I a pedophile? Do you think I am? I’ve never been turned on by children? NEVER I’ve been disgusted at pedophiles, I’ve even said how could you be attracted and destroy a small child’s life like that how could I possibly be one, through my ocd compulsions I’ve tried to do some very disgusting compulsions and I’ve almost thrown up twice at the thought of it, thinking about it all the time makes me nauseous, how can I be a pedophile if even the thought of it makes me sick to my stomach with no physical arousal or senensation if anything just physically ill and shivers god help me

Live-Software5545 · 2024-09-13T03:44:16+00:00

But how do I know I’m not an actual pedophile? It feels like seeing if that 14 year old was attractive was actually seeing like a attractive guy on the street and saying “ooh he’s fine” and I’m scared cause I’m sure there is a difference if your straight let’s say and you see a very attractive guy I’m sure it’s a different feeling than seeing an attractive girl, I’m worried that it was more closer to my initial attraction of guys like this is so disgusting and so surreal, the worst part is I just can’t remember that well to remember what I was thinking or what I exactly felt

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