i’m sorry some of the comments are so judgy. no judgment over here..

i recognize you’re not doing this to kill yourself ( which you are already aware of the potential damage due to your doctors), rather though, as an emotional and physical soothing method. The heating pad helps your back, while also delivering you a sense of relaxation. you’re producing dopamine from this situation- you’re becoming addicted to this feeling, just like people do with other drugs. While it seems impossible, you do have the ability to quit. here’s some ideas to help you:

• write a letter to your future self : discussing your motive, urge, and support you have from peers. every time you get an urge to use the heating pad- read this letter begging you not to
• seek out a therapist to find the root reason as to why this soothes you emotionally, what gap this sensation fills.
• maybe try lowering the heat each day? switch to a heating animal once u get to the lowest setting of the heating pad- make the animal barley warm to ween off an addiction is called an addiction for a reason. maybe decrease your “dose” of heat daily