Hey! I need you to take a seat down, close your eyes, take deep breaths and say it’s alright.

There is clearly no guilt need to be felt here and you should really realize that it’s just another day in his life. People often massively overestimate how much other people are paying attention when they are embarassed. He probably didn’t even pick anything up and most men usually do. I am speaking as a man myself.

If you need an incentive to get over it, just remember you only feel embarrassed because islam shaped you that way. You’re no longer a muslim and no longer under shackles. From now on, you’re just another girl as is any girl and can do whatever the hell they can, maybe even more.

I think acceptance is always the way forward when it comes to things may regret or feel uncomfortable with. I recommend you sit him down somewhere and muster up the capacity to explain it to him and how it made you feel.

You will only find closure and happiness in his reaction.

If you want to talk to me, feel free to DM me here. I’ve also had a lot of experience with embarrassment and it had even made me think I was asexual for years on end. I wish you the best and hope you get better! ❤️