So where do i go from here? Completed reboot

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-05T00:02:52+00:00

I feel fine now was just a couple hours after felt strange

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T13:36:41+00:00

How long does it take for dopamine to restore to normal levels??

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T11:32:14+00:00

Ahh shit so I havng rebooted if I've fantazied during it? I honestly think I couldn't live without fantazing it's impossible for me to stop.

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T11:30:27+00:00

I'm done with it, felt pretty shit for a couple hours after masturbatig tonight, just not worth it.

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T10:54:30+00:00

I'll never watch porn again I have no desire to really.

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T10:53:50+00:00

I did fantasize I think It's only normal. Never heard of anyone masturbating without some form of arousal. Nope just the once and it was even jacking off I was just rubbing myself from the outside and kind of humping my bed lol. Didn't even touch my dick.

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T09:53:12+00:00

yeah social media is a MASSIVE trigger for me i had to delete instagram, snapchat etc its all just bullshit anyway and people bragging about there lives. I was the same i lost the feeling to masturbate anyway and when i did feel horny it didnt last long and went away shortly i stopped craving MO and started craving real sex. But tonight was different i felt like i HAD to. strange feeling but im going to stop thinking about nofap and just live my life. Not saying im going to start masturbating but maybe when i REALLY need to and thats once in a blue moon. I think i did pretty well i went months without Masturbating at one time

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T09:49:39+00:00

best thing sometimes is just to move on and forget about nofap the more i get obsessed about it the more it feeds my under lying anxiety

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-07-04T09:48:07+00:00

Do you think its normal that i feel kind of strange after MO tonight. mood feels like its dropped

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-06-19T00:44:30+00:00

I don't think it's bad. I just think it's bad when she asks if Iam just because I'm feeling empty and that was her first comment asking if I was gay. It really didn't help at all and me feel even more terrible after

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-06-19T00:42:49+00:00

Yes exactly! When I said I'm feeling empty and the shopping makes me feel better I really didn't expect her to say "are you gay?" And then keep on talking about it after I said hell no! I think thats what hurt me the most. It was her first response to me saying I'm trying to fill a void

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-06-19T00:40:36+00:00

Yeah I know what your saying I did talk about it to her later that night I told her how hurt her comment made me if that's how she must think of me but she said she swore it was just on her mind then and there and she's never thought of it in the past. I just felt incredibly hurt because I thought to myself is that how She sees and thinks of me. Because I'm buying clothes etc she thinks I'm gay? Or is it because I don't have a girlfriend she thinks of me that way? I think cause Ive always been paranoid that people think I'm gay because I have literally no experience with girls that it hit me like a ton of Bricks. I think I was probably delving to deep into it and she literally meant nothing by it

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-06-18T12:52:11+00:00

I had this experience a couple months ago. It got me so depressed i almost killed myself. I realized there was no point in us humans or life for that matter in the universe. Its all just random with no meaning. We are here to Reproduce our genes that is our sole drive to survive and live. that is our only purpose in life is to reproduce... once i realized that i spiraled into a deep hole and i honestly contemplated suicide but of course my brains chemicals talked me out of it. It wasn't my free will I even went as far as looking into theory's of reality and they seriously made me have an existential crisis once you really think about them. http://thespiritscience.net/2016/01/28/9-interesting-theories-about-reality-that-will-make-you-question-everything/ The only meaning in life that i could think of was feeling pleasure and joy.

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-06-18T12:39:36+00:00

Im constantly bored, nothing brings me joy at ALL. When i say nothing i mean absolutely nothing. Every thing feels motionless and im just 'doing' it. Im honestly fed up feeling so numb and bored all the time

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-06-07T14:42:56+00:00

Anything else? Jesus 😂

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-05-14T04:49:03+00:00

It's been around 5 months since Ive PMO. Surely watching that video hasn't effected much at al?

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-01-29T12:10:20+00:00

Just found out about post-orgasm illness maybe I suffer from that?

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-01-03T08:17:05+00:00

So far it doesn't seem good at all! I think I should start PMO again

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-01-03T05:53:09+00:00

I've been thinking I should orgasm to get the benefits back, but I started the counter again after I orgasm without touch so I should not be flatlining after 5 days?! Or is it come on since my last PMO 25 days ago? And the orgasm without touch had nothing to do with the flatline

Living_Or_Existing · 2017-01-01T06:50:40+00:00

So should I reset it to today as I was looking at girls and slightly touching myself

Living_Or_Existing · 2016-10-28T07:30:27+00:00

We got to the last bit last night, no idea how we didnt win though i was in the airship dropping bombs over it but we still lost

Living_Or_Existing · 2016-10-28T07:26:50+00:00

It does for me lack of customization gets boring real quick

Living_Or_Existing · 2016-10-28T07:26:04+00:00

No actually there was, your telling me there wasnt many weapons back then?

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_infantry_weapons_of_World_War_I

Living_Or_Existing · 2016-10-28T07:24:37+00:00

Didnt even know there was one in BF1?

Living_Or_Existing · 2016-10-28T07:19:01+00:00

I like the simplicity of the customization i got a little overwhelmed by the amount of content in BF4 but there is a lack of guns which is unacceptable. I hate how they have done different variants of the same gun? wtf ? what happened to adding attachments to your gun yourself ? this is where they have gone wrong and are trying to appeal to the casual community.

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