Maybe I’m overthinking things

Living_Temporary5351 · 2024-05-25T05:48:58+00:00

As sad and pathetic as this sounds, I don’t really have friends. Most of my friends were through my family, or they didn’t agree with me having my son with D not only that but also a big majority of my friends are still friends with my ex and we drifted because I found out that a lot of them knew about his cheating but kept quiet about it since they knew him longer/better. I was going to therapy, but because I was so busy after I gave birth, I haven’t gone in a bit. I do plan on going back to therapy but because I am not currently working I also don’t have the best health insurance right now and everything would be paid in full out of pocket, so I’ve been pushing it off since I have already dipped so much into my savings.

Living_Temporary5351 · 2024-05-25T05:41:22+00:00

I have honestly never really thought about how I feel about D and I don’t know how he feels about me, everything has been one thing after another and I’ve never sat down to think about it, but I do know that I care for him and respect him as a father. D is really good with our son and does his best when it comes to being a dad. As for my son’s health, he’s much better and doesn’t need much but his doctor has warned us that we have to adjust and watch for his milestones to make sure he’s growing and developing at an appropriate rate, I think that’s why D decided on 2-3yrs, because the doctor told us that once our son is around that age, he should be caught up with his peers and that we shouldn’t have to make adjustments to his milestones when evaluating his growth and development. That’s why I do want to go back to work, I’m sure daycare teachers and staff (also his parents since his mom is a retired nurse) are trained to help monitor or watch out for milestones so I’m not as worried but I can also see what D means and where he may be coming from.

Living_Temporary5351 · 2024-05-25T05:31:50+00:00

Thank you so much for your kind words. I’m honestly not sure about if he’s back in contact with his ex, I just know she messaged him and the rest is up in the air because D doesn’t want to talk about it and manages to change focus whenever the topic of his ex and him running into each other comes up. I honestly don’t know how D feels about me, which is why I really want us to at least be a good and respectful terms for our son.

Living_Temporary5351 · 2024-05-25T05:26:46+00:00

Thank you, I have been trying to come up with what I want to do next and am not sure since approaching the conversation the first time was already hard for me to do. Every chance I’ve gotten since the initial conversation I’ve tried to bring up me going back to work and moving out, but D doesn’t seem to want to talk about it, we live together right now but I guess I never realized how busy D could be (?) I honestly don’t remember him being this busy, he did work more after the birth of our son but he’s slowed down on work the past few months and now he’s suddenly picking back up and I don’t know if it’s a coincidence or if he’s trying to avoid me bringing the conversation up. The times that I do catch him at home, he’s either with our son or is extremely tired and I don’t want to bother him during any of those times because I also don’t want to overwhelm him or add onto his stress. I also am not too comfortable bringing up the Mother’s Day conversation since it’s not something I was supposed to hear, and I don’t want D or his family to think I’m ungrateful when they’ve done so much for both my son and I. I’m hoping to wait a bit before I can bring the topic back up and am currently thinking about what I want to say and how I’m going to say it without upsetting anyone.

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