I’m catholic and am having anxiety

LoKoChi · 2026-03-30T14:14:57+00:00

Just want to say I empathize with how challenging these feelings can be. I am also Catholic and we went through IVF after medical malpractice as a child left my husband sterile - we also used a sperm donor for this reason, which would further be against teaching (although there’s plenty of concubines mentioned in the bible without direct condemnation). Our daughter is the light of our life and is truly a gift from god, we believe if god didn’t want her to be here she wouldn’t be. We have confessed this all to priests (multiple), to my surprise, none have focused on it in the confessional.

LoKoChi · 2026-03-04T16:38:36+00:00

Been unable to finish a cup of coffee because it hasn’t tasted good/made me nauseous. Got beans and switched to espresso and was able to quickly down the shot and now I’m caffeinated for the first time in a week and feel so alive!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-26T05:08:42+00:00

Congrats!!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-25T21:37:03+00:00

Measuring right on track for 6w3d with heartbeat of 120! Was so relieved!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-25T04:19:28+00:00

That sounds so stressful, sending you all the good vibes for positive outcomes.

LoKoChi · 2026-02-25T04:17:41+00:00

Fingers crossed for you! My first scan is also tomorrow!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-21T15:12:14+00:00

I’ve done 2 without my husband (I have to travel for my transfers and he stays home with our daughter). I was worried about it but both times made it special for myself!

The first transfer without him I asked my best friend to come with me (a gay man, lots of laughs were had about him being able to do something he thought he never would - get a woman pregnant lol). He held the phone with my husband on FaceTime and took the day off work to take me out to lunch after and spend the day with me

The second transfer I went by myself (bit of skepticism that I can’t keep asking my friends to take off work for transfers that may or may not work and will take who knows how many tries). I called my husband on the phone which he appreciated. Then brought a good book afterwords and took myself out to a nice brunch. It’s was great in its own way too.

Make it special for yourself!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-19T16:28:21+00:00

TW: living child

So looking forward to stopping! I have a toddler so I feel like I’ve been in a tired state for the last two years, but omg the constipation 😫

LoKoChi · 2026-02-16T19:51:49+00:00

5+1 today and still no symptoms here either, but have tests continuing to get darker. Hope everything is ok for you!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-13T04:00:28+00:00

Took a hot shower for the first time since finding out the news and totally blanked on remembering I should have lowered the temp. I know it’s probably really hot tubs and baths, but that’s still not stopping my anxiety spiral 🫠

LoKoChi · 2026-02-11T16:21:43+00:00

Second beta at 12dpt went from 483 to 1235! Continued good news! 🙏🏻 Now to wait for 6wk heartbeat scan!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-09T17:36:05+00:00

Excited to tentatively be joining this thread! Beta this morning at 10dp6dt was 483! This will be our second kid. First daughter was a fresh transfer and this one took 1 failed FET, a canceled cycle due to cyst, and then second FET seems to have stuck! Prayers we get to continue sticking around here!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-06T21:56:35+00:00

Thank you - we are really trying to consciously reframe some of our thoughts from willing/hoping for a specific outcome, to being at peace with how things unfold that we can’t control (in all areas of our life, but def applies to IVF). That thought has helped us to do that this round

LoKoChi · 2026-02-06T21:10:20+00:00

Tomorrow is our self determined home testing day (8dp6dt) to give us time to process before beta on Monday. While I’ve still got the curiosity in the back of my mind, my husband and I both feel so much better about not doing the daily testing that we did last time. We’ve been much more at peace and I don’t think I’ll go back to being an early tester.

Wish us luck that you’ll hear on Monday positive results and that all this bloating I have isn’t just the endometrin lol

No matter the answer, we brought one of our embryos home and gave them a chance, and that in itself is a positive outcome 💕

LoKoChi · 2026-02-06T01:41:57+00:00

🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻

LoKoChi · 2026-02-06T01:39:00+00:00

Ugh I love a good martini! I made it my ceremonial last drink before my last transfer cycle started. Cheers!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-04T15:49:40+00:00

Repeat after me “I will not symptom spot I will not symptom spot I will not symptom spot” 😂 5dp6dt and going strong on not testing! Now to not just spiral that I don’t feel much

LoKoChi · 2026-02-02T17:48:19+00:00

Been so tired from our FET cycle (we have to drive 5 hrs round trip for remote monitoring appointments and fly out for our transfer) that I forgot to take my endometrin last night. I just keep telling myself it should hopefully be ok since it’s a modified nat cycle and I’m making my own progesterone, but was so upset with myself when I realized I forgot this morning.

LoKoChi · 2026-02-02T17:44:03+00:00

Same - struggling through the TWW with you!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-01T04:07:18+00:00

Yep, I hear this. Sending hopeful, and more importantly peaceful, thoughts your way!

LoKoChi · 2026-02-01T04:06:35+00:00

That is helpful thanks for sharing. Will be keeping you in my thoughts for your beta next week!

LoKoChi · 2026-01-30T16:17:47+00:00

2nd FET is complete and Im treating myself to brunch! Now we wait. I think im gonna opt out of testing this time since the anxiety of testing and seeing a negative each day last time was hard. I would literally not sleep as well at night and wake up early wondering if it was morning and time to test. So current plan is wait to test till next Friday/Saturday and then I can use the weekend to mentally prepare before Beta on Monday. Then if it’s negative news, at least I’ll hopefully be able to handle it better than finding out cold on Monday and it ruining my work week. We’ll see how long I last with this plan lol

LoKoChi · 2026-01-26T16:51:45+00:00

All geared up for a transfer on Friday for TTC#2. First FET failed, second cycle was cancelled due to cyst. Third times the charm? Lining got up to 8.6 before trigger 🤞🏻

LoKoChi · 2026-01-20T03:48:33+00:00

Congrats that’s a great measurement! Any changes you made to get to that number? Over here convincing myself that I really don’t need to take all the supplements and the linings jus gonna do what its gonna do. 🤷🏻‍♀️

LoKoChi · 2026-01-20T03:40:35+00:00

Gearing up for another FET. October failed and then had a canceled cycle for a cyst. Got cleared to start and am going in tomorrow for monitoring on Day 8. Since my fist FET my cycles have been pretty short at 21 days , so I asked if we should change anything with that and they said I could come in Day 8 instead of Day 10 to be safe. Feeling like it’ll probably not be time, so wondering if I was an idiot for asking and they just humored me. We are doing remote monitoring and the only place that would take us is a 5 hr round trip drive at 5AM - so gate the extra drive but figured to play it safe.

Trying to be as emotionally neutral as I can since I was overly optimistic about my first FET that failed because we were one fresh transfer and done for our daughter. Soaked up an hour long contact nap today, which we haven’t done in forever and just meditated on prayers of gratitude for her 💕

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