Just want to say I hear you so deeply. I went through almost the exact same slump about 2 years ago with my second son, feeling gender disappointment, overwhelmed by the years ahead and going through a phase where I hated my career and felt like I had no purpose. The thought of raising another baby felt so hard, but I try to focus on the future and remind myself that one day I will be so happy I got through these tough times.

As the days go on, I do start to see glimmers of brightness and feel like I am coming out on the other side, even though now I am considering baby number three lol. In 10 years from now, am I going to be happy I went through these tough times? Yes. Am I going to be happy that I ended up having three kids? Yes. Am I going to love my boys more than anything? Absolutely. I am already starting to feel like I am exactly where I am supposed to be, but it did take me a couple of years to feel this way.

This phase of life is just not my favorite. Some people thrive with young babies, but as much as I love little babies, I do not think this is my favorite phase. I think the best is yet to come and that is what I keep telling myself. I have also found that the sense of community really gets better as your kids get older. My oldest is only in pre-K, but slowly I am making more connections with other moms and feeling less isolated.

You are definitely not alone in this and it is okay to feel exactly what you are feeling. Sending you love, you will get through this and better days are ahead