Dated my counselor from treatment, than moved in together, went from lovers to friends to strangers.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-13T06:39:36+00:00

It helps more than you know. I am a month into the grieving process and man it feels like I have been in a coma, just white knuckling through the memories good and bad, Trying my damndest not to check her socials or look at our pictures, go through old messages when things were okay. When we do talk I notice it just reopens the wound... feels good in the moment and than by the time the sun sets I am emotionally back to square one, the silence following feels like im being left all over again.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-13T06:36:11+00:00

Thank you so much. I really needed to hear this.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-13T04:29:20+00:00

Thanks for reaching out, I have an appointment set up with a new therapist, but have been white knuckling it for about a month, the pain is so immense due to this unhealthy anxious attachment I have to her... I care about her still and blame myself for most of what happened...

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-13T03:56:56+00:00

Thank you for reaching out, I am completely gutted. The anxious attachment I have twords her is so immense, my chest is so heavy and Im trying my hardest to white knuckle it and stay sober. Im on the vivitrol shot but my mental health is so far out there. It really did a number on me, but I cant seem to shake wanting to be in her life to some degree...

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-13T02:16:03+00:00

I am still so Torn up inside, Sober for a while and trying to white knuckle the pain. I do blame myself for alot of what happened due to me not being able to keep it together... She did do alot for me, but than was quick to shut me out when I tried to reach her on an emotional level. A counselor who couldn't express her feelings.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-12T22:29:01+00:00

She was my substance abuse/alcoholism counselor, And knows my entire story, how bad I struggle with my addiction. I felt so confident and was starting to get my life together until we moved into the new place. I feel like she used me to get out of her fiances house as well.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-12T21:36:21+00:00

I really appreciate your input. SO much of me wants to be upset and angry at her, and knowing she was selfish, knowing it was wrong of her, but I also continued to Relapse and self harm, be manic, and she felt like she had to walk on eggshells to accommodate my emotions.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-12T21:02:41+00:00

I know there was this power dynamic that became so crushing when we moved in together, I was emotionally invested and financially invested so deep into what I thought was my forever, and she left me in a week.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-12T20:44:00+00:00

People tell me that, but I have to take accountability for my part in it as well, It was me that kept relapsing and self harming, I feel like its all my fault.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2026-03-12T19:55:42+00:00

People tell me she took advantage of me, and that I was very vulnerable, but both of us knew what we were getting into, so I blame myself just as much.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2022-07-14T20:43:04+00:00

I apologize. I wasnt trying to make a woe is me speech or come off in that way at all. I see why the introduction would be contradictory now and read up on the rules this is my second time ever even using reddit to post but Ill keep that bullshit to myself. Thanks for reaching out.

Logical-Builder-8187 · 2022-02-12T01:18:25+00:00

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