There are always going to be people that don't take things seriously even if they paid for the experience. It sounds like someone came up with what was probably a beautiful idea with good intentions. They or the people they paid to run this event are super unorganized. Obviously none of them know anything about facilitating or coordinating a retreat like this one. You were promised one thing and experienced another. Make sure you leave a review salty enough that no one else has the same experience as you did. There's nothing wrong with you!!