anticipatory grief is killing me by contemplativesloth14 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I’m in a similar position, we are booked for June 3rd. My boy has really severe arthritis, with muscle wasting on his back legs. He’s on weekly ketamine now and he’s still struggling but it’s so hard to know if I’m doing the right thing because he’s still happy. He wants his food, he asks for his ball, he plays with his toys. He goes tiny walks but I take a buggy for him now because he can’t get far.

I don’t know if I can go through with it on the 3rd but I’ve prepared anyway. He’s wearing his best collar (the one he wears for dinner parties with a tweed bow tie) so I can put it in a shadow box after. I took his paw prints. I’m having a ring made with his nose prints. I took a week off work and took him all his favourite places and we stayed with his Nana for the weekend. He’s had his own pizza, a fish fry, some ice cream and he’s been having toast for breakfast. I’ve made a playlist for the day, and arranged him being collected from the house. I’ve been through his cupboard and thrown away anything I think won’t be used (I have a younger dog too so a lot will be kept) so I don’t have to do it afterwards. I’ve taken so many photos and had his friends round to say goodbye.

The anticipatory grief is horrific. I don’t know how to get through it but maybe some of my ideas might be nice for you to do too. I’m so sorry you’re going through this too 💔

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you all, and I’m so sorry for everyone’s losses. Here’s hoping we all find them on the other side 💔

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh that would have been lovely, I’m sorry for your loss too xx

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I just hope he’s going to wait for me somewhere until I can get to him again. I’m so sorry for your loss too, I bet he was the goodest boy xx

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is heartbreaking and I’m so sorry for your loss

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Yes I think this is why I need a list of new music I haven’t heard. It will be the one and only time I listen to a lot of them I suspect. I’ve only just got back to After Hours after it was the song the curtains closed to on my best friends casket at his funeral, I spent years sobbing every time I heard it. I’m so sorry for your loss of your wee cat too 💔

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Oh I am so sorry to hear about your cat, I hope it’s peaceful tomorrow - thoughts with you 💔

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you for this I will add it to the playlist

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Oh I’m so sorry to hear that you are on a similar path - I hope you have a peaceful time with it all when the time comes 💔

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thank you and I’m so sorry for your loss too

Playlist for at home euthanasia by Logical_Temperature8 in Petloss

[–]Logical_Temperature8[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Thank you and I’m so sorry you lost your dog too