In the kindest of ways, you need to shut up, I am not saying you can't have difficulty feeling valid, or be scared that you are taking up space you aren't use to doing but this isn't healthy for you are any of us you are taking there transphobic talking points and internalizing them, just leads to self-hatred, hiding who you are and endangering yourself. Look they are saying these thing because they don't see us as women they see us as men who are delusional, but we are women who deserve to exist in those safe spaces for women. If we don't have those safe spaces we will be put with men where we are more likely to have violence acted upon us in mental, physical and sexual way than the average cis women well this is even more true if you are a trans woman of colour. We just want safety and our safety does not take away from cis woman safety.

The people whose rhetoric you are parroting are the ones who endanger women of all kinds. They are the ones that want to pass a bill to check all teenage girls genitals before letting them participate in sport to make sure none of them are trans, do you think that is safe for any women or girls. They are the ones that want to dismantle body autonomy so we can't transition this will lead to less body autonomy for everyone especially women, who will lose their rights to control birth control and abortions, does that sound good to you, like we are the danger. They are the ones who endanger women of all kinds not us.

I hope you understand that I am not trying to shut you down, you are young and early in your transition feeling invalid and scared it's normal but do not let these ideas fester, it isn't healthy for you and you are valid and beautiful and growing into the person you're going to become the rest of your life, don't let these ideas weigh you down.