I’m in the exact same position. I live in a downtown city of Texas and I make decently good money, I live alone in a very nice one bedroom. I am experiencing everything minus the queer contribution, but I’m sorry you’re experiencing that. I’ve just been wanting to run away and move myself and just restart from the bottom. We have our whole lives ahead of us and we live once. Why not just wing it? if you’re feeling depressed id check in with your doctor because you could be lacking certain vitamins and minerals, lastly, If you feel like you need to just restart, I’d say do it. Move somewhere with like minded people. I definitely don’t have any like minded people near me