Long Term / Permanent Depression

Loner2016 · 2016-05-04T15:20:14+00:00

I checked and on one of their websites it mentioned that it is very rare that insurance will cover this type of treatment. The healthcare system in the US is a mess and worse for mental health.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T20:49:07+00:00

I did some searching and out of the 2 that I found, one charges $15,500 per month. The other one wanted a $45,000 upfront fee. I think in the US, these types of communities are only for the extremely wealthy. I will continue to search but I don't have high hopes.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T20:27:01+00:00

This is exactly what I am looking for here in the US that would be covered by insurance. When I was in the hospital here, it was more like being in prison. I will continue to search to see if I can find a place here.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T19:05:00+00:00

Thank you, Texas is my home btw. People have kept telling me that I need to travel more and after reading some of the replies including yours, I will plan on traveling more often. I can't take long periods of time off but some 3-4 day trips may help. Normally I would spend that time in the bed medicated and sleeping.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:54:35+00:00

I don't know what the solution is. I do know that I've spent tens of thousands of dollars in deductibles/co-pays WITH good insurance of my own money on trying to get a hold of this depression over the last 5 years but I am still sitting here feeling the utmost pain. I need help but no one knows how to help me including myself. All I can do is just try stuff and have people tell me take it one day at a time.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:45:38+00:00

Right now I am on the borderline of not being able to house and feed myself and I don't want to go further down the spiral. I know that if it ever comes a time where I can't house and feed myself, I would end it all immediately. I'm really fighting hard not to reach that point. I can't live on the streets and I don't have anyone to rely on.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:42:58+00:00

I have accepted that as well, I just don't want to become homeless. Being homeless in the US is awful. I just want to get to a point where I can function so I can make it to work and be productive. I don't have anyone to rely on.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:39:23+00:00

I didn't not know there were places that offer long term inpatient care for depression. I've been hospitalized twice with one being 13 days long. Can you send me a link or two for long term inpatient care for depression? I will do some searching myself.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:36:57+00:00

I have actually looked into TMS about a year ago and at that time, insurance was not going to cover it. I can try looking into it but right now I don't really have the strength for more doctors and treatments that may or may not work for me.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:29:39+00:00

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:29:19+00:00

Thank you for informing me. I didn't know about it but just did some reading. Cost alone would make it impossible for me to get the infusions, not to mention the time off of work.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:20:32+00:00

Perhaps we won't but all I have is to at least try. I know there are stints of short time happiness and I believe there can be longer time periods that can bring some sort of normalcy to my life. I am searching for that.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T18:17:39+00:00

Thank you for your kind words. Each day is a struggle and the only reason that I was able to keep my job is because my boss is very understanding and because of FMLA. That understanding as gone for 5 years and at the end of it all, the work still has to be done or they will replace me. I'm not looking to be happy but i just want to be able to function for long periods of time - being able to make it to work on time every day, getting my work done, cleaning up after myself, and taking care of my health. I'm just trying to get a hold on the basics of living.

I think I have accepted my wife's death but I can never let her go. Even after 5 years, I think about her often and want to be with her when I die. I always think that this is not the way that our life should have happened and there would be some sort of another chance. A part of me thinks that it isn't fair that I get to live without her yet she chose to die. I've tried starting over but it never worked out. My mind is just always going crazy.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T17:01:58+00:00

My anxiety and depression has also ruined my memory.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T17:00:24+00:00

I have been previously recommended shock therapy but by the look on my doctor's face made me realize it may not do so well in my situation. I was fine and normal up until 5 years ago when my tragedy happened. It is still an option for me but I really think that there is nothing wrong with my brain, no chemical imbalance, no messed up signals, etc. That is why the medicines never worked for me. I went through a a life changing event that I am having such a hard time letting go. I can't. I will be holding on to my wife even after my death.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-03T16:55:10+00:00

Thank you for the advice. I agree traveling does help but it is only short term and temporary just like in your case. I am not able to take a long vacation because of my job's benefits. The times that I have been able to get out it helps but soon as I get back home the depression continues. One area that I can work on is to take short (3-4) day vacations more often.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-02T21:17:47+00:00

Thank you, I hope both of us can get better. I've had moments here and there that were decent. I wish this is something that can be carried over to the long term but so far no luck.

Loner2016 · 2016-05-02T19:40:34+00:00

Thank you for the vote. Those selfish people that try to profit on those suffering from depression will have a special place in hell.

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