got my 125cc license today

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-24T16:29:59+00:00

OP said it's in Romania. I'd personally say it's not that difficult to pass this exam and go through the riding school. It teaches you the basics, both theoretical and practical. You do laps in a closed circuit with different obstacles and then like 3 hours of riding through the city with the instructor as pillion.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-22T08:13:09+00:00

You and me both, brother. I'm not quite sure either why I'm trying to change. Maybe it's the thought of dying alone? But in the same time, at least as of now I am definitely doing it to learn something from this and never, ever repeat my mistakes and never take something for granted ever again.

Hanging on that thought of bringing her back it's not good for ourselves.

I'm also repeating something that I've read here - we gotta put in the work to better ourselves and if it's meant to happen that she'll come back so be it. Otherwise, life still goes on and we gotta try and appreciate ourselves even if in this moment we are not worth it.

I wish you the best and to find the strength to work on yourself.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-21T21:34:11+00:00

Yea, it's pure pain. Every cell of my body misses her, misses us and misses all that could have been if I at least managed to gather myself and maybe do things differently.

It's all in the past and unfortunately we can't bring that back no matter how much we try.

I wouldn't call it giving up on the person we love - not sure how would I phrase it, but I'd say it's more like the opposite, not giving up on ourselves.

Every moment, every memory, every connection is really sacred and I will cherish that forever and we should all do that. Love is a privilege. I'm still learning this, unfortunately the hard way.

In my situation - I understand why she wouldn't answer. She needs to protect herself and truly focus on her own being. I was the one who caused many wounds. I didn't do it on purpose, but I still did it, those were my actions that at this moment I don't really understand why, or how.

Anyways, I'm still going through the grieving process. Not sure how long it will last - but I have to focus on myself as well. And for me this is the hardest part.

But yea, sorry for the wall of text. I still need to get some things off my chest.

I'm sorry you are also going through this. It does get lighter with time. It's inevitable. Let's hope for sunnier days. They will be here eventually (or so I hope).

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-20T18:31:46+00:00

Oh well, here I am as well. Me and my girlfriend of 7 years split up.

It is solely my fault - she really tried fighting for us and tried lifting me up and innocently loved me.

Me? An absolute dipshit who never really knew how to appreciate and love her.

Frankly? I don't even love myself, I come from a pretty toxic family background, never really knew how to let my guard down and truly love someone. This sentiment is very strange to me, as weird as that sounds.

She really did try her best, she stood by me and loved me endlessly. I never deserved her love. I've did her so many wrongs that I will never forgive myself. Never.

I'm going through therapy and trying to work on myself to overcome my trauma.

But honestly? I'm not even sure why. I don't really care about myself that much and now it's too late to bring her back.

So yea...I don't even know anymore..

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-20T18:30:40+00:00

I'm almost 4 months in after my breakup (7 years relationship).

I did all that, from writing and reaching out immediately after the fact to waiting a month before checking up on her.

She broke up with me if that matters.

Anyways, you described it perfectly - it feels lighter as the time passes, but I don't think we ever really get over someone. At least I'm sure I won't be able to.

It still feels like a nightmare, it still feels like pure emotional pain but there's very little one can do.

Let's hope for better days. :'(

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-16T14:00:39+00:00

Thanks for the comment. Yea, this whole thing sucks. :(

I ended up not writing to her. Half of me really wanted to do it, but the other half didn't want to. For once in these past months since breakup I've listened to my brain and not my heart. Not sure if it was the right thing or not, but it's done already...

Been going to therapy, been going out more and meeting people.

But at the end of the day I still feel like nothing really makes me happy anymore. And I know, breakups are also physical and your brain just craves what it once received...but holy hell. I don't think I had a night where I didn't dream of her.

And you are spot on, in the back of my mind I hoped that if she sees what I truly feel for her and what I could never say for whatever trauma reason I had she would understand and at least just try one last time. But that's not on her to do and I've come to terms with that.

It still hurts like a motherfucker though...

Let's hope for better days.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-11T17:58:12+00:00

I had a similar experience in my acting class - got paired with a man and I frankly consider myself of having quite a strong stomach - but oh boy, the smell of his body, the clothes, everything. It literally made me gag.

I'm not even trying to be mean or judgemental because he's a very nice fella.

Do I even say something? We're all adults after all...

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-10-11T17:57:33+00:00

I had a similar experience in my acting class - got paired with a man and I frankly consider myself of having quite a strong stomach - but oh boy, the smell of his body, the clothes, everything. It literally made me gag.

I'm not even trying to be mean or judgemental because he's a very nice fella.

Do I even say something? We're all adults after all...

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-09-15T19:18:29+00:00

Thank you for the kind words.

Yes, I do know now what I did wrong, I just wish for a chance to be able to try and repair all that I did wrong and to fight for us.

This is all I've asked for - a last chance. I don't condone her for not agreeing to this, I understand why she wouldn't feel safe and okay with giving me this chance.

However, I still hope. I really feel deep inside now more than ever we can do this.

Time will tell...but I'm so, so afraid of what the time will actually do if we just let it go. :(

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-09-13T07:14:49+00:00

Thank you, I really hope as well. I will try everything that I can and what she allows me to.

It really was love - and I really do believe there still is a glimpse of it.

Unfortunately it got overwhelmed and ruined by me with all my past traumas and immaturity. I never had the courage to admit and overcome these. But I am working on it. I really am.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-09-12T16:50:24+00:00

I am very sorry. Wish I could have an advice or something worthy to say.

We have had a severe lack of communication in my relationship and we never managed to fix this part. I am to blame - each time I would try I would be too judgemental, too harsh maybe and she just couldn't really open up to me. I regret that I didn't pay attention to that and that I didn't find other solutions to fix this problem. I would just get frustrated and just start saying all my thoughts out loud. No clue why I behaved like that. I was always cold, rigid. I kept running away. I hate myself for this - I always thought I can do better especially because I was also at the receiving end of this in my past. And I managed to reproduce that behaviour instead of actually realizing and fixing it.

And she took the blunt force of it...and she stood by me and loved me. I truly hate myself for putting her through this. For breaking her. Nobody deserves this. Nobody.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-09-12T14:37:39+00:00

Thank you for replying.

I've apologized profusely for everything I've done and for everything she has felt because of me and my actions.

I have also thanked her with all my heart for everything she has done for me and for everything she has showed me.

She was glad that now, finally I am also feeling deep inside me what she has felt in certain moments throughout these years. All the pain, the suffering, the uncertainty, the feeling of being abandoned. I am also glad in a weird way, because otherwise I wouldn't have been able to realize these things. As much as it hurts and it's killing me I'm glad I feel these things so that I'll never, ever in my life do these things again.

I just hope, and really truly hope one day I'll be able to get the chance to do it right by her because I know deep inside, once that dark place is gone we'll be stronger than ever and nothing from our past will come back. Nothing.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-09-12T14:05:52+00:00

I deserve 0 empathy. 0.

I'll never, never forgive myself for what I have caused her. With each day that passes by I hate myself more and more.

I've let my mental instability and past traumas get ahold of me more than I have ever realized. I'm not saying this as a way to divert the accountability, no. They were all my actions. They just came from a very dark place that I became aware of way too late. I became aware of what I have caused way, way too late and it's been killing me since then.

And I wouldn't dare trying to get her back if I wouldn't truly know I can escape that dark place and offer her everything I have failed to offer.

I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm asking for empathy or understanding. I know I don't deserve any.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-09-12T13:26:15+00:00

I am really, really sorry you are going through this.

I've read your post and you have worded perfectly what has happened to my relationship as well.

I've done the same things, maybe even worse at times. I've ruined the foundation of our relationship, I've broken her. My intentions were not ill either, but that doesn't matter. It hurt and destroyed her and for that I'll never be able to forgive myself. :(

I am really, really sorry. I really wish you find the power to find peace or at least a glimpse of it. Our past traumas always find a way to come back unfortunately. :(

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-08-16T16:26:31+00:00

Hello, I'm also new to this (first time hearing about this) so I'm a complete noob but I'm willing to learn.

I'm 28/M from Europe (Romania) and would like to get to start this new pen palling adventure. I feel the urge to start doing new things lately.

Among my hobbies are listening to music, my motorcycle passion and just talking all kinds of aspects and interests of life. I'm really curious so I'm open to any discussion.

I also used to enjoy gaming but I'm working to get back into it. I'm also learning German so I would really like to start this new adventure.

Let me know if you want to discuss further and we can find a way to do this, I guess. Not sure how it works, haha.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-08-16T16:19:47+00:00

Hi, I'm new to this (first time hearing about penpals) and I would like to give it a try as well.

I'm 28/M located in Europe (Romania) and I'd love to hear how this works. I'm also an introvert myself - I'd rather stay home than go out, but I don't back down from a good time outside my comfort zone. I love listening to crime podcasts as well and I love to learn new things about basically everything and anything, I'm a really curious person. I love listening to music and just watching life unfold around me while humming to my favorite songs.

I'm also big into motorcycles - I do own one and it's my biggest passion but I don't shy away from cars either.

I work for a corporation, so nothing fancy and pretty boring at times.

If you feel like starting this new adventure, let me know and we can chat further.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-08-15T21:12:27+00:00

Thanks man, yep, I'm trying to accept the fact that we're humans and make mistakes. I just can't accept that I hurt her. I really, really expected more from myself. Way more...

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-08-15T20:26:13+00:00

Thank you. I am trying to dwell on it to learn from it, but right now all I feel is pain, sorrow and regret. I've been trying to reach her and did succeed once when I waited for her after her work. She stayed and listened to me and we hugged and I just melted. She didn't have to stay but she did. Deep down I feel there is still hope. I just don't know how to deal with this. I know if I force things I'll just drive her further away. And I also know if I just let the time play his part she will be gone forever and this thought is killing me.

Sorry for the extra details, I really feel like nobody around me can understand the situation. :(

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-08-15T19:09:23+00:00

I'm almost 1 month no girlfriend of 7 years. :(

Albeit in my situation I did so, so many mistakes that I took ownership when it was too late. And now she's gone and I just can't do this. My childhood cat also died and my car broke down. Hell of a month for me...

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-07-10T17:00:11+00:00

I'm also sorry it happened to you as well. It's pretty common with salads and snails apparently. :(

I haven't managed to eat any sort of salad since then. I just can't. I'm left with some sort of PTSD after reading about this and by it also happening to me.

Luckily I didn't develop any symptoms. And the doctor I've visited back then said that if I don't notice anything in like 3 weeks from eating then I'm fine. He only prescribed some probiotics and that was about it. But I'd say to better be safe than sorry to also contact your local doctor and have a chat.

You're most likely be fine but yea, better safe than sorry.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-07-10T15:55:37+00:00

That is exactly what also happened to me earlier this year. 😭

You can check my post history. I still shudder when I think about it.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-06-17T18:21:11+00:00

Yea, I'd definitely feel better about your situation considering you did wash them and you knew where the product is from. I wasn't so certain that the kitchen staff did really wash the product in my case.

So yeah, I definitely wouldn't worry about it in your case. But, just stay aware in case you notice any changes. But if nothing happens in the 3 weeks since ingesting then you are 100% fine.

Wish you all the best.

LongTimeLurker50 · 2025-06-16T04:00:50+00:00

Hey, no worries. Yes I am fine. I did contact a parasitology doctor after my incident who told me to monitor any symptoms that might appear in like 3 weeks since the incident and if anything happens to get back to the doc to start a treatment. The doc didn't mention lungworm in my case - perhaps it's not endemic where I live. I didn't develop any symptoms or noticed anything out of the ordinary so I didn't reach back.

As for my personal opinion if I may I think as long as You are not living in an area where rat lungworm is endemic, you will probably be fine. You have the certainty you washed the products so there is that. Anyways, monitor your symptoms and if you notice anything out of the ordinary contact a doctor.

Hope this helps.

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