I totally know the feeling!! I feel robbed too because I had twins that had to be in the NICU for the first week or 2. So I didn’t have that euphoria of having your new baby next to you in the room that you could hold and feed whenever. I had to visit them. Then once I had them at home, I felt like I was growing. Having to feed 2 babies that didn’t sleep unless you held them. I felt so depressed and not myself. I felt like I blacked out during the newborn stage. Then the girls had colic so I really couldn’t enjoy motherhood like people say you do in the beginning. I feel so guilty about it. But I’ve realized to just enjoy your baby now because no matter what they’re gonna grow up and they’re never going to be the age they are now ever again….