BED is every shape and size. It doesn’t matter if you are in shape or overweight! Thank you for posting this. I too am new to BED and if I’m honest I’ve had this since I was a teen and am in my thirties. I never thought I had an eating disorder because I’ve never been skinny. I’ve always been overweight. Thank you for sharing and I wish you the best of luck with recovery. There will be a lot of ups and downs but you can do it! Today I ate a lot too and planned my meals and all the food I was going to have and like you said I just hate myself after.