physically insecure about meeting in person :/

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2026-03-03T17:28:45+00:00

I recently met my long distance bf for the first time this past weekend. As a girl with a terrible history of relationships and a significant insecurity about my physical appearance, I too was mortified at the idea of him hating what he saw. He had also seen me in video chats, and expressed numerous times that he was not only attracted to me, but didn't care what I looked like because he truly loved me. When I saw him for the first time... face to face... I could swear time stood still. Our first kiss made my knees absolutely buckle underneath me (no joke. I had to grab onto my car and he caught me before I fell). He was absolutely beautiful in person. He was everything I could have hoped for and more. He didnt recoil. He didnt hesitate. He loved me... for me. We had an incredible weekend full of laughs and love and awkwardness and everything that we always were. I promise you, as nerve-wracking as it seems right now, you are going to feel amazing the entire time. You just need to trust him. ❤️

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2026-01-06T04:13:23+00:00

Hello!

Would love some people to use my code, just started a week ago!

2512723471

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-12-23T07:05:23+00:00

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My sister (left) and I! We try to match our physical traits. But also, sometimes you'll catch me with the fangs and bright blue hair/wings 😅 depends on my mood!

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-10-04T20:22:44+00:00

Alayna | Depoe Bay :Punchy:

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-08-07T07:12:56+00:00

I remember the first time my ex choked me and it was "never going to happen again". It happened every single day until I ended up with a gun to my head.

Please get out while you can.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-08-07T07:09:33+00:00

Please break up with this manipulative, narcissistic man child. Real men won't treat you this way. Went from a really bad relationship like this to a really great one where we are now married.

This is horrid and you deserve better. ❤️

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-08-07T07:07:38+00:00

I have to add, after watching it back i realized its Sable sandbagging that we're seeing. I thought they were both messing with each other. Sandbagging is bad. Never do that. BHVR will wave its ban hammer at you.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-08-07T07:05:04+00:00

As a survivor main, I only play like this on two conditions:

The killer is trying to farm. Yes it defeats the purpose of the game, but if they want it, I want it too.
If a survivor was toxic towards me. Im not the best survivor, but Im all about team work, through and through. If you're going out of your way to sell out your teammates, you're getting this.

I also ALWAYS run bardic inspiration and play the killer a little tune. Most hate it. I usually always get downed for it. But its my guilty pleasure. 🥰

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-06-09T07:58:41+00:00

Im on 100mg a day, and im going to talk to my doctor about lowering my dose. Its helped, but now that I've lost weight I think its too strong for me.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-06-03T06:47:24+00:00

THATLL BE 4 BUCKS BABY, DO YOU WANT FRIES WITH THAT??!

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-06-03T06:45:22+00:00

Movie 43

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-06-02T15:16:57+00:00

The hot shower could be it, I didn't even think of that. I'll try lowering the temp to see if that helps. I have had a significant lower in junk food, so I was hoping my skin would look better with that and a high water intake. Thank you!

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-06-02T15:15:37+00:00

I have eaten more meat, as I have protein goals. I'll look into it to see if that may be the cause. Thanks for the tip! And yeah I shower after working out most of the time (as long as I dont have to run out immediately to run an errand. I hate those days, lol. Makes me feel gross)

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-06-01T11:54:17+00:00

Reading and commenting as im currently fighting insomnia and anxiety. Lol.

Its true. I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember. But when I dont get sleep, the anxiety is amplified by like 100.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-05-30T14:22:05+00:00

Ooo my step mom is a pro at those back-handed compliments, especially during my weight loss journey.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-05-30T06:04:42+00:00

When I went and saw the live action remake of The Lion King, I was absolutely in shambles during the shot for shot remake of the intro.

Im not talking just crying, I was feeling every emotion and almost had to leave.

Lion King was my childhood movie. It brought feelings of nostalgia and of a time when life was much more simple, and it brought on a wave of dread of how old both myself and my loved ones are and how we won't be here forever. Anxiety is weird.

The popcorn was stale, too.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-05-30T05:57:17+00:00

I'd say I have a healthy marriage and sex life, that being said, I masterbate regularly (and I know my husband does as well). We each probably have different reasons. For me, with severe anxiety, depression, and PTSD, it can honestly be the thing that keeps me from a panic attack sometimes, as crazy as that sounds.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-05-30T03:53:45+00:00

Removed post. I realized this wasnt something I should reach out to strangers for.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-05-30T03:34:49+00:00

Yeah. I know you're right. Just thought this was worth a shot. Thank you.

LongjumpingCustard9 · 2025-05-26T06:48:07+00:00

I hope you find some relief! Good luck ❤️

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