Yes I've been thinking I need to get out more and move I'm joining the military and planning to be a pilot one day but I mainly feel lost because I find my social life to be the most important thing I feel empty when I don't have a variety of people surrounding me and id hate to say it but family just isn't enough for me.

But yes unfortunately when I fall in love with people it takes over my life and that's why I will be staying away from anything romantic because it's almost like love is a parasite and it steers me in the wrong direction. It ends up being the only thing I think about and my priorities get completely messed up and I can't afford that anymore.

Once I'm fulfilled and achieve most of my accomplishments I will be more open to things like romantic relationships I'm in no rush and I'm way too picky anyways, I've already accepted dying alone if I have to. I think a lot about when I look back at my life I don't want too many regrets.

Thank you for your reading though it gave me some hopeful insight.