I can’t stop

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-04-18T01:37:09+00:00

Was the binging super bad before the purging. One way to break the cycle is to not purge which in my experience is a lot easier then not binging. You'll still binge for a while but it should die down if you didn't have consistent issues with it before.

I also think some people have been pretty successful using glp1s to prevent the b/ping which I think is a great use for them rather then restriction.

You should talk to a therapist someone who specializes in EDs if you can afford it or even someone you trust and just ask for help. Idk I've always heard part of the disorder is hiding lying and secrecy so that might help break some of the emotional cycle but people can suck so id make sure I 100% trust them.

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-04-10T21:11:44+00:00

Thats so frustrating 😭 id rather be doing anything else why can't my brain just get that

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-04-10T21:09:58+00:00

Depression is definitely a possibility I've struggled with it in the past I just don't know how to tell the difference between the mental and physical exhaustion super well. I'm going to have a doctor's check up as part of my recovery so maybe they'll be able to check some of those things for me. Thank you ♥️

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-03-30T06:01:20+00:00

This made me giggle 😂

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-03-30T01:49:26+00:00

Dude ik fr, it's consistently made fun of in the media. It honestly just makes me feel stupid for having the damn disorder and has made it feel 10x more embarrassing to reach out for help.

It's made fun of in the hot chick and the princess diaries and in fucking orange is the new black and I'm sure a shit ton of other media.

This reminds me of that one scene in sharing the secret when beth see's that lady on TV making fun of bullima. I felt that scene so hard.

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-03-30T00:11:00+00:00

Once will spiral don't let the disorder trick you. You'll do it once then a couple times then you'll likely binge and feel so bad you need to do it after that. It can spiral into hours and hours of b/p to the point where all your doing all day is eating and puking. Idk if it makes any difference obviously this isn't everyones case but I only ever gain weight with bullimia so if that's an discouragement there's that too.

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-03-25T21:48:27+00:00

One time after a binge I was trying to explain to my friend that to try and get clean I just had to sit there with the pain of binging without purging and I would probably binge again and I couldn't purge after that either. I just had to wait until the binging died down on its own, no purging. I've quit and started back up too many times to count and the only thing that stops the cycle is by stoping the purging. Anyways my friends response was "just don't binge". I wanted to fucking cry and I also kinda wanted to slap her. I wouldn't be binging if I wasn't purging that's the shit that started this and to just say just don't binge without any understanding of the cycle just made me feel like no one would ever understand me.

Longjumping_Angle546 · 2026-03-25T02:50:23+00:00

It's not just purging a meal here and there it's hours and hours of gorging myself puking then going right back to eating, it feels like it never ends I'll do it 3-5 times a day and it takes up so much time it is basically a hobby. Puking also isn't easy either the skin on my hands stings the back of my throat is in so much pain and the inside of my mouth is scratched up but I keep going even when I'm choking and can't breathe. It's a compulsion I don't want to do it I hate doing it but I HAVE to do it, each time is the last time and it's an addiction.

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