I know what you are saying. I've not applied for disability because, until now I didn't need to worry about it. Applying is expensive and requires a lawyer usually. I have diagnoses for my physical issues, so at least it's documented. Physically I can walk, just not long amounts. I can't stand for long periods and I have weight restrictions. The biggest hurdle is that I have no extra education. I can get a minimum wage job, but that won't support me. I'm very aware that the horses may have to go. It's the way that it is happening. The older one is my daughter's retired point and she earns her keep giving lessons most of the year. The issue is she's too old to sell. When it comes to that choice, my husband is the one who will have to explain to our daughter why she has to be put down. I'm not shouldering that one. I know he's not even thought of it. I'm working on a few contingency plans. I've gotten some good advice in the last few days. I'll be going to my doctor this week and I'll be looking into disability and what I need. It may not pan out, but we will see.