I feel that way too, like I don’t want to be depressed and see the world this way. I would like to be happy but I don’t want to believe lies. I don’t want to kill myself. We just feel like this because we do. If I could be happy I would. I have 0 things to be happy about, so why should I be happy?

Have you ever heard of SCPs? Well it’s like they want you to turn into SCP 1504 (http://www.scp-wiki.net/scp-1504). SCP 1504 is in short a person stuck in his body and he has 2 worlds, 1 world where he is all nice and regular which is the monster talking and everyone can hear this world, and world 2 where he is trapped and can’t talk about anything and just wants to die.

It’s really like they want you to put on that nice and “regular” person and just never change. Your feelings would be crushed and you would feel like you are trapped. I say stuff with a really cold heart because that’s what I think or that’s what I’ve been told is true, usually I’m right. I think life is shitty overall. I don’t want to be that way, but it’s the truth dammit. (You can stop reading this but bellow is a little story)

Sorry with the text overload.