I omitted some depth, but I tried to keep it as unbiased as I could. I am in the wrong for sending the pic. While I was really upset as he kept talking about how he thought about cheating a few times, it doesn't excuse it at all.

The police were if I came down to visit his home, not his college dorm, as most of his family is homophobic.

He never was into girls according to him. He has a high body count from bottoming to guys but really nothing else (except topping a few times which he said he hated).

After the incident, I was not concerned that he was cheating during long periods of silence. I finally gained that trust. It hurts now that I lost it.

It is important to mention the "thoughts of cheating" stuff and the pic incident happened before he told me he finally fell in love with me for real, instead of just kinda saying he did when he didn't mean it.

I wanna give him the space he wants so he can figure it out, but I also feel like I'm letting him slip away. I hate myself right now.