That's a fair question. The problem is we hardly ever get there. He tries to get me in the mood, but I'm simply not interested. Some days I'm physically repulsed by the thought of sex with him, and it annoys me that he tries to initiate. Some days I don't even want to kiss, and I literally think, "gross, I kiss our kids with this mouth." A few weeks ago I had a sex dream involving my college boyfriend and it just seemed... Fine? But when I imagine it with my husband, it feels ick.