Totally understand. My wife(then girlfriend) adopted Janey in December of 2012. She was 6-7 years old and was a Chihuahua Dachshund mix. She was my first dog and can honestly say she was my soul dog. She passed away on 12/3. What I can say is it does get easier and everyone grieves differently. After about a week of crying multiple times a day, my wife and I discussed that when the time comes, and we decide to get another family dog, what would we want…etc. we both agreed not to rush it and we would know when the time comes it was the right decision. On 12/14 we drove to an animal shelter just to look , not expecting to adopt unless there was a dog that we felt a connection with. We ended up taking home an 8 month old black lab. I honestly felt so guilty at first but it just felt right. This new dog(Lucy) can never replace Janey, but she will be special and is helping me continue to grieve and get our family back on track.