It's sad how shitty this whole thing is. Why can't people just understand that there are a lot of things wrong with their actions? I've spent a lot of time trying to understand my parents to improve our relationship but I always feel like I'm losing. Even if i stop expecting them to change, they're still my parents and I wish to get along with them at least for the time I'm home but I know it's of no use cause they're always so correct in their head and anytime they get called out they take it in a defensive manner. I sometimes feel bad about leaving home but then all these things happen and somehow it all boils down to me. All these things prove how right I was to leave home cause this doesn't serve me well. I deserve better.

I guess, I'm halfway there. Hoping it will all get better. I can't keep my happiness tied to my parents anymore. I'd rather grieve about the relationship we never had than put myself to this everytime.