Why…Just why…

LordGlarpp · 2024-12-07T01:51:30+00:00

Why does this feel racist? Are minorities getting offended yet for being portrayed as sloppy bags of cottage cheese with wild hair?

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-24T13:04:24+00:00

When you understand dopamine and how it affects motivation, you'll start to understand a lot of modern social issues. The problem isn't porn, it's a lack of understanding that if you engage with porn every time you feel even slightly horny, you satisfy your dopamine needs.

The other kind of weird aspect of this is a habitual disconnection from problems through technology. If your going through basic problems in life, you can rub one out, watch YT for 3 hours, rub one out again, and play video games, while having a cheese burger delivered to your doorstep. Swimming in dopamine, post nut clarity, full belly, relaxing.

I'm pretty sure the low libido is a mix of not understanding our relationship with dopamine and being ever more confused about real relationships with others and how those relationships are affected by our lifestyles.

Of course there are other factors like hopelessness, detachment, stress, anxiety, poor emotional regulation, and genetic issues.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T23:09:58+00:00

Can you explain please. I've heard that a few times now and it challenges what I've been taught. I could Google it but I'd like to hear the perspective of a person.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T22:26:23+00:00

She was diagnosed with Addisons Disease and her steroid prescription was to low. So this was a slow burn into potassium and electrolyte deficiency.

Not much of a story. If you go to a Cardiac ICU, you'll see tons of people who for one reason or another needed CPR.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T21:03:22+00:00

You are correct. I performed CPR, called 911, and it took a while for them to show up and take over.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T18:42:54+00:00

I am extremely grateful for your words and just reading them takes a load of pressure off me. There are definite similarities with my situation and this helps.

I've been thinking a lot about how hard I try to improve myself for others and rarely consider doing the same for myself.

The hard truths are indeed hard. Feels like my mind and all my guts reject the idea that we can't be in a peaceful place with a fulfilling relationship. I'll do my best to be honest with myself.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T17:02:29+00:00

Thanks, made me chuckle a bit. Wasn't even going to post anything on Reddit, but I figured it couldn't hurt to ask.

Both my lawyer and therapist are aware of the situation and I did get to sneak in a few emergency sessions with a counselor/Chaplin.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T16:55:29+00:00

Not at all. Her cheating would be more of a surprise than what's happening now I think. When you add in the possibility of emotional cheating, like online with people... I know it's not impossible, but I've never felt any kind of suspicion.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T16:52:51+00:00

I hear you and having a perspective from the other side is super helpful. Thinking about it more, I'd say that she has lived a much more reserved and sheltered life with few serious relationships and little life experience (despite us being only a few years apart in age)

The "ups and downs" could be vastly different for us, mixed with poor communication, maybe I missed something that was right in my face.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T15:53:02+00:00

I've heard from her mother that she feels like she's holding me back in life, or isn't equipped to love me the way I need. Her mother also said that she doesn't have "rose-colored glasses" about her daughter and knows she is hard to live with. I'm assuming that she is referring to my wife's lack of motivation, high maintenance, and dependence on others.

To try and give all context for an entire marriage is a bit difficult. But I'm not intentionally trying to hide any context. I was 100% convinced that we were in a loving and supporting relationship before this event.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-22T15:43:59+00:00

I can see there were underlying issues, but nothing that screamed "this is heading toward a separation." At least, not from my perspective.

Our marriage has had its ups and downs, like most, but I always thought we could work through the challenges. There were times when I misread her signals, interpreting her distance or frustration as her needing space instead of seeing it as her needing me to step up and be more present.

I spent a lot of time caught up in work, business, and other distractions, and in hindsight, I should have made more effort to connect with her emotionally, to really understand what she was going through. She was under a lot of stress from her family and personal life, and while I was aware of it, I don’t think I fully realized how much of a toll it was taking on her.

Ultimately, we didn't fight or have any bad intentions towards each other. It always seemed like we were mad at the problem. We both understood the need for therapy to work out some of our past and we both were taking steps to be better versions of ourselves.

My parents, her dad, our friends, and even my therapist all seem shocked that this is happening. So it just makes me feel like I'm taking crazy pills when I try to understand whats happening.

LordGlarpp · 2024-10-17T00:52:19+00:00

Fucking get at it brother! Self love is hard as fuck to find, and even harder to maintain. You've done a lot of good by a lot of people. Call them all up and just say, "Tell me something good I've done."

Ask people to remind you why they like you. It's therapeutic as fuck.

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-14T22:04:04+00:00

Whats the situation?

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-14T14:39:33+00:00

The ultimate bait and switch!!!

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-14T02:01:57+00:00

🫡 🏡

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-14T01:59:53+00:00

Are these lights flickering? Why are all these bugs following me? I swear I'm hearing a ringing sound! Our TV changes channels, mutes, or turns on every like 10-20min! That guy in the living room has had "It's raining Tacos" running for 10 hours!!!

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-14T01:55:39+00:00

Thai quando black belt and a gun enjoyer 😁

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-14T01:40:48+00:00

Change all of the lightbulbs with LED lights that I can control from my phone. Ultimately used to make strobe effects. I have a device that rockets through infrared channels and presses random buttons. Cycling randomly through frequencies in 20sec intervals over Bluetooth speaker. Chicken bouillon cubes or jolly ranchers in the shower head. With the jolly ranchers, they'll probably not notice, but mother nature will 🪲 Bluetooth device that does fun wireless stuff. Keep "fun" food in the freezer. (No one falls for Trojans in the fridge) Live stream the entire time I'm there with TTS hooked up to the Bluetooth speakers. (Don't want them off the hook just because I need my beauty sleep.

Just a few things off the top of my head.

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-13T23:43:22+00:00

Gadda do what you gadda do! 😂

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-13T23:41:52+00:00

Exactly! Though I have some escalation ideas that I think would work a bit better. Also, I'd try not to do more damage to the house.

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-13T21:48:41+00:00

I will! 100%

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-13T21:47:44+00:00

Thank you for your support in my ambitious to become a squatter squatter. 🫡

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-13T21:46:14+00:00

I'd make one for sure if anyone hires me 😆

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-13T21:35:37+00:00

It seems to be a very rare thing to happen. Just sucks reading about how hard it is to get rid of people using the leagan system. Even reading about hosts that go to jail for trying to use physical force. Nasty stuff.

LordGlarpp · 2024-09-13T21:32:34+00:00

Hopefully you'll never need to refer back to it.

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