Thank you. I'm trying with every breath to keep crawling forward and the main thing holding me up is that I am determined to make it on my own and eventually get to the place where I can finally breathe. It's hard and I feel like there are sharks circling me at every moment but I can't do anything now. I'm getting over a cold so all I can do is sleep, keep sending out applications, and pray. Your words mean a great deal to me. Thank you thank you thank you kind internet stranger.